Fruit of the Spirit

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23

How many times have I failed in doing my part of living out HIS Fruit of the Spirit to my children?  Too many to count....When I think about my role as Mama, I sometimes can't help but to feel like a failure, as I struggle so much with being WHO HE has called me to be.  It seems as if though every time I am diligently working on NOT giving into my "feeling's" and seeking HIS truth, I fall short.  Something or someone always seems to trip me up. 

Thankfully I have a LOVING HEAVENLY FATHER WHO, loves me far too much to ever let me fall for very long.  HIS Daily Teachings today is showing me how I, Heather, Mama to five of HIS precious children, CAN do her part in living out HIS Fruit of the Spirit.  This morning HE is breaking it down for me one by one, and showing me where I have fallen short, and how I can pick it right back up, even when it seems as if though I'm heading straight into a train wreck.

" Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud." 1 Corinthians 13:4

HE is teaching me that too often when my children are doing something wrong, and I let them make their mistakes, each time I make the decision to boast to them that I was "right" I am NOT  loving them as HE is calling me to love them.  HE is wanting me to know that just as HIS love is unconditional, so should my love for my children be also.  HE is telling me that I must NOT be too proud to show my children my flaws in failing to teach HIS Fruit of the Spirit, rather I should embrace that I as their Mama have shortcomings too, and the most comforting thing to know is that HE is there, and HE will help me.  Therefore, I must choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of LOVE to my children.

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds" James 1:2

HE is wanting me to know that it is imperative that I model choosing JOY to my children especially when times are tough.  Too often I get wrapped up in the conflict that is going on in our home, within their relationships, and through my aggravation I forget that HIS JOY is there, and it is waiting to be claimed by me.  I must model choosing HIS JOY for my children so that when they are struggling through a test, trial, or storm in their lives, they too will know that HE is there, that HE does care for them, and HE will help them.  
Therefore, I must choose to live boldly while modeling HIS FRUIT of JOY to my children.

"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God." Matthew 5:9

" Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

HE is telling me that as I have been learning for the past eleven years, I, Heather am HIS child.  That means that I am a child of GOD.  HE is telling me that in knowing this, I must live out HIS calling for my life, and in doing that I must choose to live with HIS peace, even when things around me are starting to crumble.  HE is teaching me that this means I must choose to NOT get worked up about what is happening between my children, and instead, stand firmly in my FAITH in HIM, that in speaking HIS truth, and speaking with HIS love in my heart and mind, I will have the authority to bind the evil that is lurking and waiting to destroy each of the relationships between my children.  In knowing that I have the authority I am learning that this means that I must choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of PEACE to my children.

As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.  Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace." Ephesians 4:1-3

HE is reminding me that in choosing to be a CHRIST FOLLOWER I have agreed to come under HIS authority, and live my life according to HIS will.  This means that I am no longer concerned with what the world is telling me to do, and I am no longer making decisions based on what I want. HE is telling me that while everything within me is screaming to be angry, upset, and worked up, HE is wanting me to remember that HIS PEACE is within me, and in seeking HIS PEACE I will remember that HE works everything out for my own good.  In knowing this, I must choose to live my life this way for all to see, especially my children as they are the ones of WHOM HE has entrusted their lives to me.  I am learning that it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of PEACE to my children.  

"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" Romans 3:23

HE is wanting me to know and remember that when my children are doing something wrong, that is dishonoring to their sibling or myself, that I must remember that I too fall short of the glory of GOD in my thoughts and actions.  HE is reminding me of decisions that I have made in the past that have NOT brought PRAISE, HONOR, and GLORY to HIS name, therefore I must not be so hard on my children when they too have fallen short.  HE is telling me that this means when they make mistakes as children do, I must refrain from doing or saying whatever comes to my mind, so that I will be speaking  positive and encouraging, life building words to my children.  

As I was do the researching to what forbearance means this definition really spoke to me: "refraining from action: the fact of deliberately not doing or saying something when you could do or say it" bing.com I am learning that it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of FORBEARANCE to my children.

"She opens her mouth with wisdom,and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue" Proverbs 31:26

This morning HE is showing me that through almost every situation that I am dealing with conflict between either my children or myself, my biggest downfall is my mouth.  HE is teaching me that I must choose to only open my mouth if I am willing to speak HIS truth, otherwise, it's better for me to keep my mouth shut.  HE is telling me that it is my job, my calling to teach my children about KINDNESS,  and the importance of speaking with KINDNESS to everyone, even when someone has upset, or hurt you.  HE is wanting me to know that it is absolutely imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of KINDNESS  to my children.

"And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ." Philippians 1:6

HE is reminding me of this scripture that I memorized almost two years ago during a woman's bible study.  At the time I wasn't really sure how HE was working in me, or what that really meant for my life, but no more than ever I am understanding what this means for my life.  HE is wanting me to know that HE is filling me with HIS wisdom and HIS truth so that I will be able to teach them to my children.  This means that when things are difficult in their relationships with each other or with me, I, Heather, can be the mature one to speak with HIS truth and HIS authority to know that HE is doing a good work in all of us, and when we choose to live according to HIS will, and come under HIS authority  HIS GOODNESS and MERCY shall be showered upon us.  Therefore it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of GOODNESS to my children.

While reading today's "Power Thought" Joyce Meyer she quoted the scripture as this:  

"GOD is faithful (reliable, trustworthy, and therefore ever true to HIS promise, and HE can be depended on); by HIM you were called into companionship and participation with HIS SON, JESUS CHRIST our LORD." 1 Corinthians 1:9

HE is wanting me to know that no matter what is happening in my life, or my children's lives that HE is there that HE is FAITHFUL!  HE is wanting me to know that I need NOT to worry about how anything is going to work out, as I know I can trust HIM completely.  HE is telling me that instead of worrying about how I am going to care for each of my precious five children, I must seek HIM, and trust HIM that HE has each of our lives worked out, already planned and written on purpose for HIS purpose.  HE is wanting me to know that all I have to do is live my life according to HIS plan, in trusting HIM and BELIEVING HIM that HE has amazing plans for our family.  Therefore it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of FAITHFULNESS to my children.

" And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful.  Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will." 2 Timothy 2:24-26

A few weeks ago while scrolling through Facebook I came across a saying that spoke volumes to me:  "You don't have to accept every invitation to a fight that you receive"  This morning HE is reminding me of all of the times where I have fallen into the trap of showing up for a fight that wasn't even mine to begin with.  In accepting the invitation HE is teaching me that I have missed out HIS amazing Fruit of GENTLENESS that can be used to diffuse the fight, and NOT ignite the fight.  HE is reminding me of the times where I have allowed myself to become so emotionally invested in my "feelings" or my children's "feelings" that I have missed out an amazing opportunity to teach them by modeling HIS Fruit of GENTLENESS to them.  HE is teaching me once again the importance of writing HIS word on my  heart.  

"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." Proverbs 15:1

I know I have been writing this over and over again today, but I feel as if though HE can't say enough just how much it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of GENTLENESS to my children.  

" No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13

How many times have I just given into the temptations of shouting "SHUT UP!!!!!!!"  Sadly, this is a common phrase that you will hear around my house when my children are quarreling with one another.  That is usually the same time where I start to lose my cool, and give into the malicious thoughts that I am having in my head, and my mouth begins to run, without a care in the world.  HE is teaching me today that the reason that HE is focusing so intently on HIS Fruit of SELF CONTROL is that when it comes to modeling that for my children, that is the number one area where I have fallen the most short.  HE is telling me that I can, and will overcome my SELF CONTROL issues when I choose to live my life according to HIS will, and seek HIS words, and make them my words.  HE is wanting me to know that when I choose to live with SELF CONTROL I will then be modeling this to my children.  I am learning that it is incredibly imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of SELF CONTROL to my children, so that they too will be able to overcome their own impulses.  

Today I am so incredibly thankful that HE has answered the cries of my heart.  I am so thankful to know that while I was writing in my journal all the things I have been struggling with, HE was already there, that my story has already been written.  That HE has everything worked out for my good.  I am so incredibly thankful and blessed to know that each day that I seek HIM, and ask HIM to teach, lead, and guide me HE does.  I am so thankful to feel HIS presence, and to see HIM working in NOT only my life, but the lives of my children.  Today I am so incredibly blessed to be living this life with my family, and knowing that even when we fall short, HIS grace, is more than enough. 

Dear Friends, I pray today that you will know that HE is FAITHFUL, that HE is a loving, caring, compassionate, giving, and always (when you repent) forgiving GOD.  I pray that you will seek HIM today, and HE will reveal HIS plans for you.  I pray that you will have the courage to walk the path that HE has chosen for you, and that you too will choose to live your life according to HIS Fruit of the Spirit.  I pray that when you do, you will be living a contagious life, that other's will stop and say to you, "What is it about you?  How are you able to maintain such peace in your life?"  I pray that HIS blessings and favor will be showered upon you when you choose to live according to HIS Fruit of the Spirit.

Many blessings, and lots of love,
Heather 

imperfections

Recently I took a challenge to say nothing negative for twenty-four hours.  Upon taking this challenge I didn't really prepare, to be honest I didn't even pray about it. I just "thought" its only twenty-four hours how hard can it be?  What I would learn over the next twenty-four hours, both saddened and angered me.  

Upon the first hour of the challenge I was at the gym, and even on my way to the gym, traffic which is usually light that time in the morning was pretty heavy.  I should have known that upon taking this challenge that there would be roadblock's set up to test me.  One of my greatest flaws that I struggle with is, feeling angry while driving.  Especially when someone endangers the lives of my precious five children.  Sure enough, someone made a careless move and cut me off, in fact it was more than one person.  I gritted my teeth, and said, "Thank YOU JESUS for YOUR protection."  Looking back I'm pretty sure JESUS doesn't want my praise and thanks while I have gritted teeth.

When we got to the gym I put my youngest in the childcare center and my two teen daughters and I made our way to the workout stations upstairs.  That morning I had decided that I was going to bike for at least five miles, and then I would lift weights for the remaining time.  No sooner did I start warming up, did I feel someone press on my bike behind me, and a voice that said, "what are you doing?"  I turned around and it was a personal trainer, that was getting well.... waaaay to much into my personal space.  He kept asking questions, and the one that nearly threw me over the edge was "make sure you check your heart rate, you do know what that is right?"  After that I had, had enough, and I was about to give him a piece of my mind, and that is when I remembered the challenge.  I managed a half smile, and said, "thank you for your concern, I am very aware of my heart rate, to which he insisted on asking me if I knew what level I should be at.  All the while I am becoming more annoyed by the minute in thinking, "um excuse me, am I paying you to bother me? To coach me? To train me?  UGH!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"

After what seemed like forever, he left me alone, and it was then that all of my insecurities began to creep out of me with questions of, "do I look stupid working out?  Am I too fat for this machine?  Is it that obvious that I need help?  Was he flirting with me?  Why was he being such a creep?  If that is his way of being helpful, well he doesn't have game.  Also, if he was flirting, ewwww, and he most certainly does NOT have any game."  It took me almost  three miles in to get all of these thoughts out of the way, before I could fully focus on keeping my heart rate up, and I stopped questioning myself. 

To be honest, had I been there alone that day, I wouldn't have stayed, in fact I don't think I would have ever gone back.  However, since I had my two daughters with me, I sucked it up, and gritted my teeth and made it through one of the best workouts I had ever had.  It was on that day that I began to let go of my need to be perfect, and began to accept my imperfections.

At the end of the challenge I breathed a sigh of relief, as well I had failed miserably.  It's been a week since I took that challenge, and today HE is meeting me right where I am to teach me how my distorted view of being a positive wife, mama, and well person have affected me and those around me.  Today HE is teaching me that being positive means that I must choose to accept that I have imperfections.

HIS Daily Teachings today is showing me that just as I, Heather am flawed, so is everyone else.  So often I "think" I could be a positive person if the circumstances were just right.  HE is teaching me that I can't just "think" that I can overcome the negativity that plagues my heart, soul, and mind, rather, I must seek HIM and allow HIM to work in me and through me, by teaching me ways to guard my thoughts, and tame my tongue. 

HE is reminding me once again that the only way I am going to learn is by going through a series of tests and trials, to challenge me to guard my thoughts, and tame my tongue.  HE is wanting me to know that I will be able to remain positive during these challenges when I, Heather let go of my great expectations that everyone, and everything needs to be perfect.    HE is telling me that in order for me to let go HE will keep humbling me when I am putting my unrealistic expectations on either myself or the people around me. 

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:14

Today HE is wanting me know and understand that I, Heather was made the way I am, on purpose, for HIS purpose, therefore I must remember that it is the exact same way for everyone else.  HE is telling me that so often I forget that my life's journey isn't just about me, that it is about other people as well.  HE is wanting me to know that there is a reason why I encounter the people I do, as I am to learn something from each of the challenges that I face when interacting with other people.  

I used to "think" that I was total people person, now however, I "think" I am a people person, but only when said people are nice to me. I like people when the circumstances are perfect, and well as I am learning those are the most unrealistic  expectations I could possibly have in this messed up broken world full of people with so many imperfections.

HE is letting me know that the quirks and flaws that I myself, and others may find annoying, HE has planned for a reason, so that I, Heather full of quirks and flaws would know that I couldn't possibly navigate through all of my imperfections without HIM.  HE is telling me that just as I am learning that I need HIM, I must remember the next time I get annoyed by someone else's quirks and flaws that they too need HIM as well.  

HE is teaching me that in order to let go of my unrealistic expectations of perfection from myself and others, I must choose to seek HIM, and HIS truth about WHO I am, as I know WHOSE I am, and in doing so I will be able to live my life as my true authentic self.  

"HE uses our unique combination of abilities and disabilities to help build loving and balanced homes"  Karol Ladd "The Power of a Positive Mom"

HE is letting me know that it has been HIS plan all along to make each of my seven family members uniquely different.  HE is reminding me of this by having me think about my children.  Even though I have five of them, no two of them are alike.  They are all so uniquely different in their likes and dislikes.  Some of them like to sleep in, other's like to stay up late.  Some are very sarcastic, and while other's are extremely tender hearted. HE is telling me that it is the same for my husband D and I.  We are both so uniquely different, and that is why we work.  What D likes to do, I don't, and that creates this amazing balance.  This is why our marriage works as we bring a nice balance to our marriage and complete the tasks that need to be done without the need to keep score of who does what.  Never before have I been more thankful that D and I are so uniquely different.

"Our success as positive mothers begins as we realize that we are glorious creations -- a special blend of strengths and shortcomings that GOD has put together to create a beautiful work of human art, know to our families as "Mom."  Karol Ladd "The Power of a Positive Mom"

Once again HE is reminding me that HE created me on purpose for HIS purpose.  HE is wanting me to know that HE has created me to be the writer of HIS Daily Teachings, as HE knew one day I would seek HIM, and through allowing HIM to teach, lead, and guide me, I wouldn't be able to keep it all to myself, that I would feel the need to shout it, scream, and tell it to the masses WHO HE is, and WHAT HE has done for me.  HE is letting me know that each day I write the blog is another day where I am doing my part of bringing HIS KINGDOM of HEAVEN here to Earth.  

HE is showing me that my life has been HIS plan all along, imperfections and all.  HE is letting me know that it has been HIS plan that I would be Mama to HIS amazingly precious five children.  HE is wanting me to know that it has been HIS plan all along that I would meet, and marry D, and we would live the life that we are living, as it has all been our story which plays a part in HIS story that HE has written for this world. 

This morning HE is taking me back to D and my wedding day when my little sister sang "Keeper of the Stars."  This verse is really standing out to me this morning, and really making me smile: "It was no accident me finding you.  Someone had a hand in it.  Long before we ever knew.  I know I don't deserve a treasure like you, there really are no words to show my gratitude."  

HE is filling me with HIS loving reminders this morning that long before D and I ever knew..... HE knew..... HE knew that D and I would meet at the young ages of 16 and 17. HE knew that we would marry just 3.5 years later on October 17, 1998.  HE knew that 4 months after that on February 25, 1999 welcome our first daughter, and become parents for the 1st time.  HE knew all the tests, trials, and storms that we would endure in our marriage.  HE knew that 3 years into our marriage the imperfections that threatened to wipe us out, HE would use for HIS good.  HE knew that on my 25th birthday D and I would both choose HIM to be our LORD and SAVIOR and be baptized in front of  thousands of people.  HE knew that my past that was full of imperfections would come exploding out of me  HE knew that D would be able to withstand the stormy raging seas that would last almost 9 years until I finally learned to accept my imperfections, and would have the strength to overcome my past through HIS loving guidance, and teachings.  HE knew that in 3 months from now we will be celebrating 16 years of marriage, a marriage that without HIM being THE KNOT, our CENTER wouldn't be possible, as we are both so full of imperfections.  

Today I am so honored and blessed to be writing our story, that once we asked CHRIST to be the center of our lives, our love, respect, and understanding grew for each other by leaps and bounds.  I am humbled to say that had it not been for HIM transforming and renewing each of our hearts, souls, and minds, we wouldn't still be together, and we wouldn't be raising our wonderful family of seven.  I am thankful that I get to be his Wife and their Mama and that I have the pleasure of living life with all of them and how they love me and I love them imperfections and all.

Dear Friends, I pray that if you are struggling with being positive that you will seek HIM and allow HIM to show you that your imperfections are not to hurt you, but to lead you to encourage you to seek HIM.  I pray that you will know and understand that you were designed specifically on purpose for HIS purpose to seek HIM, to know HIM, and to allow HIM to be LORD of your life.  I pray that you will have the courage to let go of your imperfections and that you will allow HIM to work in you and through you, so that you too will be doing your part of bringing HIS KINGDOM of HEAVEN here to Earth.  I pray for many blessings and favor to be poured over your life, and that you will feel HIS presence and be filled with HIS peace, comfort, and understanding that you are HIS glorious creation!

Much love, prayers, and blessings,
Heather 

Mama Bear

Being a Mama of five of HIS precious children, I often fail to see what my role as Mama Bear really is for my life, and theirs.  For so long I have thought that being Mama Bear means that I am to be fiercely protective of my children, and to go to battle with anyone who may try to harm them by bullying them.  I have always "thought" that GOD has called me to fight for them, but as I am learning with raising my teenage daughters, NOT only do they NOT need me to fight for them, it isn't my place to fight their battles for them.  This is all been a HUGE part of my learning to fear NOT.

"When I am afraid, I put my trust in you." Psalm 56:3

HIS Daily Teachings today is teaching me what my being Mama Bear really means for my life.  It never ceases to amaze me that when someone is offending me, or hurting me how I am so quick to take the high road, and avoid confrontation all together.  However, if you offend, or hurt my children in anyway shape or form, you better be ready for Mama Bear as she is ferocious, and she will fight you, with thoughts, words, and actions, and most of the time they will be unholy and ungodly.  

Whew, just typing that makes me cringe, as HE is taking me back to so many times where I "thought" that being Mama Bear was how I was raising my children, when really HE is teaching me something completely opposite.  HE is letting me know that it was never HIS intention for my children to be fully dependent on me.  Rather it is my job as Mama Bear to teach my children that even though I can't do everything to help them HE can.  

HE is telling me that just as HE is teaching me to fully depend on HIM, I must choose to live my live as HIS living testament of WHO HE is, and WHAT HE has done, and WHAT HE will continue to do in my life, and their lives.  HE is wanting me to know that my being Mama Bear means that I am to love them, and help them, and encourage them to seek HIM, and walk closely with HIM, to give their hearts, souls, and minds over fully to HIM, to know and to trust that HE truly does have their best interest at heart.  

HE is showing me the ways where I have failed to live out my role of being Mama Bear in this way, as often times I become the arrogant Mama in "thinking" that I am the only one who truly knows them, and loves them the best. HE is telling me that I must choose to let go of my "thinking" that my children couldn't possibly survive a crisis without my "helping" them.  HE is reminding me that while I play a unique role in their lives, HE is their ultimate leader, provider, and protector and it is my job as Mama Bear to teach them that.

HE is reminding me that while I may "think" that I, Mama Bear am their sole provider, I must remember that it is my job as Mama Bear to train them up with full and complete dependence on HIM.  I must teach them that HE is the only one WHO will be their in every single one of their crisis's and times of need.

This morning HE is taking me back through a hard lesson that HE taught each of us through our oldest daughter.  When she was thirteen she endured the most tragic event that has ever happened to her.  During that time D and I were so immersed in our own tests and trials, that we weren't there for her, and honestly we didn't even see that she needed us.  Through her words, she told us the story of when she realized the harsh reality that her parents weren't going to be the ones to help her through this crisis.  As the tears streamed down my face that day, and are this morning, through her words, as they replay back to me this morning, I now know and fully understand that this is when she truly learned what it meant to fully depend on HIM.  

She let us know how HE took her through the event and showed her where HE was.  HE lead her through an amazing journey of forgiveness, and taught her the greatest lesson of FAITH that she has ever endured.  Through her bravery to share her story she was able to overcome it all through her loving LORD and SAVIOR.  When she finished sharing her story, she looked right at me and said, "Mama I was able to make it through all of this, because I knew I could trust and depend on GOD, because that is what you have always taught me."  

When the reality hit of the most horrific event that she has ever endured, I was astonished by how calm, and peaceful I was.  I was completely taken aback of how Mama Bear didn't lash out and try to blame someone for NOT protecting her precious little cub.  It was amazing to me that I didn't try and seek revenge, and plan the demise of someone else's life, by allowing myself to be emotionally lead and letting Mama Bears ferocious teeth bare to anyone and everyone that was involved.  

HE is reminding me of her words this morning to let me know that this is what my role of being Mama Bear really means for my life.  HE is wanting me to know that I must never underestimate the value of my life's challenges and what they mean for my children, as they are witnessing to how I choose to handle things, and how I choose to seek HIM, and ask HIM to help me overcome every single one of my life's challenges.

HE is wanting me to know that just as it is my role to be Mama Bear, it is also my role to honor my children by modeling what a GODLY marriage looks like for them.  HE is letting me know that my children are watching my every step, and holding on to my every word that I speak about their Daddy, therefore, I must choose to guard my thoughts, and tame my tongue, so that when they too are in relationships with their spouses they will be able to do the same.

HE is wanting me to know and understand that just as I myself endured tragedy as a young girl, and made it without my parents, my daughter has as well, but the GREAT NEWS is that she has her LORD and SAVIOR, of WHOM she chose to make LORD of HER life at the young age five, and after tragedy struck rededicated her life to HIM at fourteen.  HE is telling me this is because of my role as Mama Bear that HE has been working through me to reach her since she was two years old.  

HE is teaching me that fear NOT means that I must choose to live this way with my life, and also as Mama Bear.   HE is telling me that I must to TRUST HIM, and BELIEVE HIM that HE will protect each of us, and through HIS love and grace we will be able to OVERCOME anything and everything that we encounter.

"The truth is is our children need experiences that teach them to cope without us." Karol Ladd "The Power of a Positive Mom"

HIS loving reminder is coming to me today that NOT every battle is for Mama Bear to fight.   HE is wanting me to know that while my daughter's circumstances were extreme, not all of my children's battles will be extreme, and it is especially important for me to remember that in the little battles, I must teach them to fear NOT, as we know that the storm won't rage for very long, and HE will be right there with us, teaching, leading, and guiding us to victory!!!

"If we take care of every need and are present in every situation how will our children learn dependence on GOD?"  Karol Ladd "The Power of a Positive Mom"

This is hard for me, as I feel as if though I am abandoning them in their time of need.  This is especially true when someone is hurting them, or their feelings.  I become Mama Bear and quickly prepare myself to go to battle for them.  However, I am learning that my job as Mama Bear is to love and encourage them to seek HIS will and HIS way for their lives.  To ask HIM to lead them through the crisis, and to be there for them to do the victory dance with them when they do overcome and win the battle when they choose to fight the good fight with HIM!

"Sometimes we "wonder moms" need to humble ourselves and get out of the way."  Karol Ladd "The Power of a Positive Mom"

HE is telling me that in my quest to be Mama Bear I am failing to to remember to teach my children that HE has everything already worked out for our own good.  Therefore, I must choose to fear NOT through my FAITH in HIM, and TRUST and REST in HIM that HE is there, and HE will help us through everything that HE is leading us to.  HE is letting me know that it is NOT my job to live out my vision of being Mama Bear through all of their problems.  Rather, it is my job to live out HIS vision of being Mama Bear to my amazingly precious five children.

"Mothers have one of the most powerful jobs on Earth.  With GOD's help, we can influence our children to become world leaders, talented inventors, creative musicians, great athletes, passionate preachers, devoted school teachers, committed physicians, and the list goes on." Karol Ladd "The Power of a Positive Mom"

Never before has my role of being Mama Bear been more evident mean to me.  I am learning that it is crucial that I choose to let go of their hand, and allow them to walk their journey with HIM.  I must choose to fear NOT when the time comes that HE asks me to let go of their hands, and TRUST HIM completely that HE truly does love them and know them best, and that HE does indeed have great, and amazing plans for their lives.  

HIS final reminder to me about being Mama Bear is this:  I am to train, nurture, develop, prepare, and teach HIS precious five children that HE has chosen to place in my care.  This means that HE has entrusted me with these precious five lives to teach them how to run after HIM, and fall straight into HIS loving arms.  To know HIM, and to BELIEVE that they too can fully depend on HIM with every single area of their lives. HE is wanting me to know that when my time on Earth here is through, and they will have to face this cruel harsh world without their Mama Bear, they will remember their Mama and all that she taught them about love, and life, and how HE will help us overcome anything through our FAITH in HIM.  HE is wanting me to know that is when I will hear as I come face to face with HIM, "well done good and FAITHFUL servant."

As I typed out today's blog, I fought back so many tears, as I am so incredibly honored and blessed to be Mama Bear to my amazingly precious five children.  I am in constant awe of their incredible resilience to our life's challenges, and how they in my times of weakness remain incredible pillars of FAITH for me to know that I truly am training them up right.  I never imagined myself as someone's Mama, and I am so incredibly thankful that I get to be theirs.   

To my wonderful children:  I promise to always love you, support you, and encourage you to chase after your dreams (not my dreams for you.)  I promise to never let my fear be placed on you, and to push you further into your LOVING SAVIOR's arms.  I promise to always speak HIS truth to you, and to be sure that you are writing HIS promises deep into your hearts.  I promise to model what being in a GODLY marriage means, so that you too will one day have a GODLY marriage. I promise to always pray for you.  I promise to always be your greatest cheerleader, and biggest fan!!!  I promise to be your Mama Bear just as HE has always intended.  I am so blessed to be your Mama, I love each and everyone of you with all my heart.  Love always, Mama

Dear Friends, I pray today that when you are feeling fearful, that you will remember that with HIM there is nothing to fear.  I pray that you will have the courage to seek HIM, and ask HIM to help you in your time of need.  I pray that if you are hurting, and are in an what seems impossible situation, that you will know that HE is there, and HE cares for you.  I pray that HE will fill you with HIS peace, HIS love, and give you HIS comfort to know that HE has already fought the battle for you, and that you can fully depend on HIM.  I pray that if you don't know HIM, or don't have a relationship with HIM, that you will repent of your sins, by saying your sorry, and ask HIM to come into your life as your LORD and SAVIOR.  I pray that HIS blessings, and favor will be poured over your life through your obedience to HIM.  

With love, FAITH, and many blessings,
Heather 

distracted

For the past five days, I have been busy.  Busy being a Mama to my five children.  Busy going to the library, gym, swimming, and spending three days at Six Flags Theme Park.  In the past five days I have allowed myself to become so incredibly distracted from HIS teachings, that sadly when I looked up the last time I wrote in my journal was on July 3rd.  Sure I prayed in these past five days, but I didn't seek HIM, and ultimately I have made some pretty crucial mistakes in the way I have chosen to think, speak, and act. 

Thankfully this morning, I felt HIS gentle nudge for me to get out of bed, restart my routine, of my alone time with HIM, so that I would be able to hear HIS whispers, and most importantly heed HIS whispers.  HIS Daily Teachings today is revealing to me just how distracted I have become, and in allowing that to happen, WHO I have become is someone I don't even recognize.  Today HE is showing me what has happened to my thoughts, words, and most importantly my actions in allowing myself to become distracted.

My Thoughts:

Oh where to begin, you mean about the hurtful, awful, deadly thoughts I have had in the past five days?  Thoughts where I have wished ill will on the drivers who have cut me off.  Thoughts of wanting to send my ungrateful children away. Thoughts of my husband being a jerk.  Thoughts of being tired, most importantly (to me anyways) sick and tired of everyone getting on my nerves.  Just sitting here typing it all out, brings stinging tears to my eyes, as I have seen where I have fallen so short of HIS glory for my life in the past five days.  

HE is wanting me to know that it is never too late to begin again, and that when I repent, and seek HIM, HE will meet my distracted self right where I am.  HE is telling me that HE has allowed myself to become distracted so that I would be able to see WHO I am without HIM.  It is no coincidence to me that I woke up this morning singing, "Imagine me without YOU" by Jaci Velasquez   "Imagine me without You, I'd be lost and so confused. I wouldn't last a day. I'd be afraid without You there to see me through. Imagine me without You, Lord, You know it's just impossible. Because of You, it's all brand new. My life is now worth while. I can't imagine me without You."  Upon looking up the lyrics for this song, I have been sitting here listening to it, and I have begun to realize just WHO I am without HIM.

Today I am so incredibly thankful, and blessed to know that I am truly living out HIS promises for my life about WHO HE is, and WHAT HE will do for me, NO matter how distracted I have become.  Today HE is answering my cries for help, and is meeting me right where I am and showing me what my life would look like without HIM.  Through HIS loving reminders I am seeing WHO I will become.

My Words:

Honestly I can't even begin to type all of the horrible things I have allowed to slip through my thoughts and straight out my mouth.  Sadly, in allowing myself to be distracted, I haven't said or done much of anything, that is even remotely GOD honoring.  It pains me to know that because of my my being distracted, I have taught me own children how to be all about one's self, which undoubtedly they don't need anyone teaching them how to be selfish.

HE is teaching me once again through horrible consequences to my actions in choosing to speak words of death instead of life just how much I need HIM.  HE is reminding me once again the utmost importance it is for me to understand just how much I need to be guarding my thoughts, and taming my tongue.  

"Those who guard their mouths and their tongues keep themselves from calamity." Proverbs 21:23

"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen." Ephesians 4:29

"A gentle answer turns away wrath,but a harsh word stirs up anger." Proverbs 15:1

"The words of the reckless pierce like swords, but the tongue of the wise brings healing."

Proverbs 12:18

MY Actions:

These are undoubtedly that hardest thing for me to admit, much less write about.  My actions in the past five days of allowing myself to be distracted have been at times disastrous.  In failing to guard my thoughts, and tame my tongue, I have allowed myself to be Satan's puppet in his deadly game of wanting to wipe me and everyone I come into contact with out.  Living distracted I have become just another pawn in Satan's deadly game of where no one wins, we all lose, and sadly as my family history has been written lose their lives.  

HE is filling me with HIS loving reminder today that through HIM, HIS strength, HIS love, HIS mercy, HIS grace I am truly More than a Conqueror!  

"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us"  Romans 8:37

HE is wanting me to know that no matter what happens in my life, HE is there.  HE will give me the strength to handle it.  HE is telling me that my problems are no longer anything I have to solve on my own, that HE is there and is waiting for me to seek HIM, and ask HIM to teach, lead, and guide me through ALL of my problems.  HE is telling me that when I seek HIM that is when I will know that with HIM I am MORE than a CONQUEROR!

This morning HE is filling me with HIS loving reminders that I am MORE than a CONQUEROR through my "Power Thoughts Devotional " Joyce Meyer.  HE is wanting me to know that I am able to do anything that HE leads me to.  HE is wanting me to remember that with HIM I most certainly can do anything, and with HIM I will be able to lose my sense of dread, when I know I am facing difficulties.  

This is taking me back to yesterday and driving my precious amazing five children and a guest to Six Flags. We were two minutes away, and I had just go on the toll way to get to the exit that I needed for us to go there.  As soon as I entered the tollway, everyone hit their breaks.  Almost instantly I knew it was an accident, but sadly I didn't even pray, no I was more concerned that "great now we have to wait, we were so close, how long is this going to take?"  Which then became thoughts of, "Look at all these idiot drivers, HEY that guy cut me off!!!  HEY listen BUSTER I have children in my TRUCK!!!  GAHHH!!! Unfortunately for myself, and my children, and our sweet guest, I began to allow my thoughts to become my words.  

My Actions:  

Upon being cut off by the guy in the red SUV, I became irate, and in my anger, I began to say things, agree to things, and ultimately began to act out my road rage.  Mocking other drivers, cursing, and saying horrible ungodly, awful things.  In my selfishness of the inconvenience that I was "feeling" I missed out on the amazing opportunity to pray for the people who had just been in an accident.  Even driving past, I was way more annoyed than I was concerned.  The total time that it took for us to get on the tollway, get off the tollway, and into the park took 1 hour and 40 min.  In that time my children all became restless, just as I was.  In that time I not only lost on the amazing opportunity to pray, but I failed to seek the opportunity to speak HIS truth to my children,and speak HIS plans and HIS will for WHO we are, as no matter what happens WE are ALL MORE  than CONQUERORS!

Today HE is telling me that I need to share what I wrote in my journal about what was on my heart.  It is hard for me admit this, as it shows me just how far I strayed from HIS Daily Teachings.  

"LORD JESUS, I now know what "I can't imagine me without YOU" means for me.  I haven't felt YOUR guidance in the last five days, as I have been so consumed with having fun, and keeping to my own agenda.  To realize that I was only pulling myself further away from YOU.  I am so sorry for allowing myself to become distracted by allowing my words to become daggers, and my actions to.... well to be honest they could have been deadly.  I have made mistakes for the past five days as a Mama, a Wife, and a woman WHO is supposed to be but is most certainly NOT GOD honoring!   Through my distractions I have become a push self-entitled brat WHO wants what she wants, when she wants it.  OH LORD please forgive me.  Hear my cry for YOUR guidance to replace my distracted vision with YOUR vision.  I want and need YOUR vision, YOUR will, YOUR plans, YOUR way for my life.  In allowing myself to be distracted I have once again let go of my health, and as a result, I had a major toothache from all of the soda I had been consuming.  This was all a result of letting myself go. Help me LORD to hear YOUR whispers, and most importantly heed YOUR whispers!  I need YOU and I love YOU so very much!  Love, Heather"  

As you can see I poured my heart out to HIM this morning, and whenever I do, it's a very personal moment of reflection that I write to HIM.  I write to HIM, as HE is my Daddy, and I love HIM.  I am realizing with each day passing just how much I need HIM, and when I allow myself to be distracted just how quickly I can be swept away.  

Dear friends, I pray today that you will have the courage to seek HIM, and allow HIM to show you how you have become distracted.  I pray that you will know that HE knows your hearts cry, long before it ever enters into your mind.  I pray that you will allow HIM to transform  your heart, soul, and mind to align with HIS will for your life.  I pray that your distracted vision will be replaced with HIS vision for your life, so that you will truly be living your life according to HIS will and HIS plans for your life.  I pray that when you do, HE will pour HIS blessings, and favor all over your life.

Many prayers, and blessings,
Heather 

priceless.....

She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.Her children arise and call her blessed." Proverbs 31:25-26,28

This morning I woke up with a heavy heart, feeling defeated in the battle of my words.  Not just my words, but my thoughts as well.  Last night I spoke so negatively to my children, and I kept replaying that moment over and over in my head.  This morning HE is giving me the answers to the questions in my heart as to WHY I gave into my "feelings" last night, and is teaching me how to OVERCOME the stronghold of negativity in my thoughts, words, and actions.

HIS Daily Teachings today is reminding me that while I may NOT have realized it before now, I must know that my being Mama is truly priceless.  HE is wanting me to know that in order for me to fully understand what that means for me, I must first seek what priceless means.  According to dictionary.com, priceless means, "having a value beyond all price; invaluable:"  HE is telling me that my being Mama to my amazing five children is something that NO one else has been or will be equipped for.

HE is telling me that I must understand that I was chosen to be their Mama, and because of that I must know and understand that no matter what challenges, tests, or trials, that may come up in their lives, when I seek HIM, HE will equip me to help them, and that is truly priceless.

This morning HE is teaching me the importance of maintaining a positive tone in my home.  HE is wanting me to know that if there is a lack in positive tones in the house, then in order for things to turn around, I must be the ONE WHO resets the tone.  This is difficult for me, as I grow weary at times of always being the bigger person, always be the ONE WHO takes the first step, and always being the first person to say they are sorry.

HE is wanting me to know that instead of grumbling or complaining about the challenges that I or my children are facing on a daily basis, I must choose to laugh and be positive  so that I will then be setting the tone for positive interaction between my children and myself.  HE is reminding me once again that the things that I am needing to know and understand about being Mama, can only be found when I choose to read HIS word, study HIS word, speak HIS WORDS, and meditate on HIS word.  

HE is wanting me to know that my role as Mama is truly priceless as I am the only one WHO will model how to keep a positive outlook on a not always so sun- shiny life.  HE is telling me that I must choose to give positive instructions to my children and learn to let go of my pessimistic views, thoughts, words, and actions.  HE is wanting me to know that when I choose to model a positive outlook on life to my children , that is when my children will see me, and they will call me blessed.  HE is telling me that having them call me blessed, is truly priceless.  After all, WHO else would endure the daily struggles with them, and still find a reason to smile.  

HE is telling me that this is the very reason why HE has been working so hard to teach me about always remembering to choose HIS JOY!  HE is teaching me that HE didn't just teach that to me, for just me, but so that I would then model it to my children, and they would learn to choose HIS JOY so that no matter what may happen in their lives, they too will know that HE is there, and that HE does care.  

HE is wanting me to know that I am the only one who spends almost every single waking hour with them, and because of that I am the only one who is given the chance to model CHRIST for them, and because I know of HIM and HIS faithfulness, HIS goodness, and HIS unending, unfailing, relentless love and amazing grace, that makes my role as being their mama truly priceless.

HE is teaching me that I became their Mama on purpose for HIS purpose, to raise, train up, and teach HIS ways, and how to seek HIM, and to grow in a relationship with HIM.  HE is letting me know that each time I pray with my children, I am teaching them how seek HIM to have a heart like HIS and that is truly priceless. 

HE is reminding me that when I had my first child, to when I had my fifth child HE has been, is, and will continue to be teaching HIS wisdom.  HE is reminding me of who everyone comes to with questions to be answered in our home about where things are, what needs to be done, whats for dinner etc.  HE is telling me that the reason I am the only one who can answer those questions is because I am Mama.  That to me is truly priceless. 

"The truth is we wouldn't trade this job for the world.  It's the toughest job we ever loved!"  Karol Ladd "Power of a Positive Mom"

This is so true for my life, as even though I may not have dreamt of becoming a Mama, I truly am a blessed Mama of five to HIS amazing, precious children.  Just the mere fact that HE has entrusted five little beings to me is truly priceless.

"Motherhood transforms naive, inexperienced young ladies into wise, accomplished women who command respect."  Karol Ladd "Power of a Positive Mom"

HE is reminding me of my first few moments of being a new Mama.  I remember holding this precious little girl, and just being in complete awe of how magnificent she was, and still is.  I remember holding her for hours on end, just looking into her eyes, and loving her with each feeding, diaper change, song that I sang, rocking her, bathing her, and holding her until I thought my heart would completely burst.  Those memories I hold so very near and dear to my heart, as they are so incredibly, overwhelmingly, and truly priceless.

"Maternal love strengthens us and helps us grow into selfless, thoughtful, and giving adults."  Karol Ladd, "Power of a Positive Mom"

HE is telling me that even though I didn't have a Mama growing up, when I became a Mama, HE equipped me to be just that for my precious baby girl.  HE is reminding me of the first time she got sick, and instead of panicking, I calmly took her temperature, and was able to discern whether or not she needed medicine.  Once I was able to determine that, I then took her to the doctor.  Through every fall, scrap of the knee, boo-boo kissed, I was there, and HE is telling me so was HE.  Coaching me, cheering me, towards victory in my quest of becoming Mama.  

HE is wanting me to remember and think about all of the times in the  years since I have become Mama, where I have let go of the things I wanted, and sought after what they needed.  HE is letting me know that just as in my being Mama wanting to meet ALL of their needs, HE is doing the exact same thing for me, and because HE knows what's on my Mama heart for my children, NOT only does HE meet my needs, but HE meets their needs as well.  When I am able to teach this to my children of how good, great, and wonderful HE truly is, that to me is truly priceless.

HE is reminding me that just as I am willing, and seeking HIM to move mountains to provide for my children, HE is doing the exact same thing for me.  I am overwhelmed by HIS loving guidance this morning, in revealing to me HIS plans, HIS intent, and HIS purpose for me being Mama.  I am so incredibly thankful and blessed to be living this life, as a living testament of WHO HE is, WHAT HE has done, and WHAT HE will continue to do.  I am so thankful to know that my role as Mama is truly priceless.

HE is taking me back through all of the challenges, tests, and trials that I have endured as being Mama, and HE is letting me know that HE was there, is there, and will continue to be there, and HE will NEVER leave me, nor forsake me, and that is truly priceless to me.

"Yes being a mom brings out the best in us!"

I can tell you that never before in my life have I ever been more loving, giving, accepting, forgiving, and adventurous person before my becoming Mama.  Before I had children, I didn't even know how to be child-like, and if it weren't for my amazing, precious five children, I wouldn't know what it means to be child-like in my FAITH, as HE calls us to be.  I am so incredibly thankful for each of my children, who have taught me how to have so much FAITH, that no matter how bad things get, how hard life becomes, or how hurt we are, we serve a truly loving, giving, forgiving, faithful GOD and that to me is truly priceless.

"And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." Matthew 18:3

"GOD has given us an inexplicable strength -- a strength beyond our own strength -- that allows us to tend to the multiple needs and cares of our precious charges."   Karol Ladd "Power of a Positive Mom"

HE is reminding me once again that is on those days where I "feel" weak, as Mama I must seek HIM and TRUST HIM and BELIEVE HIM when HE says that HE is my strength.  HE is telling me that even though I may not always see through HIS vision right away, when I seek HIM, HE will show me things through HIS perspective. In knowing that HE is waiting for me to seek HIM to teach, lead, and guide me, I am in complete awe that HE never gives up on me, and I am able to tell my story to HIS children, and that to me is truly priceless.

In thinking about my story, and how HE has, is and will continue to turn things around for my good, I am truly honored and blessed to be living this life as it has been written specifically for me.  To know that HE has built me to withstand the test, storms, trials, and challenges of this life is truly priceless to me, as it has ALL brought me straight to HIS loving arms.

This morning HE is reminding me just how priceless my role as Mama is by teaching me how to live.   It is of no coincidence to me that I fell completely in love with this song by Point of Grace called "How You live."  Today I am so incredibly thankful to have this song to model to me how to live, and that is with fearless trust without borders, unfailing, unconditional love, WHO is able to extend HIS amazing grace onto everyone who upsets or hurts me.  To model ALL of this life, walking closely with HIM, choosing to be clothed in dignity and grace, that to me is truly priceless.

Through seeking HIM this morning HE has revealed to me the many ways where my being Mama is truly priceless:

When one of my children are hurt, and they automatically want/need Mama.... Priceless

When they see how much I enjoy being their Mama, and seek out ways to show them that they are special, and how much they mean to me..... Priceless

Through all of the smiles, hugs, laughter, silliness, and thanks for being "the best Mama in the WHOLE WORLD"..... Priceless

When being woken in the middle of the night to console a little one with a bad dream, or a teen who can't sleep as life's questions stalk their sleep.  Through loving words, gentle hugs, and encouraging prayers..... Priceless

In helping each of my five children navigate their relationships with others, and teaching them how to be humble enough to admit their wrong, and to forgive and see past offenses and love others as CHRIST love us....... Priceless

When upon turning our home upside down to locate the missing toy, ipod, phone, shoe, cup, comforting sleeping stuffed animal...... Priceless

When becoming their own personal cheerleader, encouraging them, speak HIS truth into their hearts, and showing them how much they matter to me and to HIM...... Priceless

When being able to be the only one who can comfort or console them in their time of need...... Priceless

When forgoing the hot bath, resting, or reading the book that I've tried to read at least 10 times to bake their favorite treats, so that our home smells wonderful, and their tummies are full of yummy goodness.  When afterwards chocolate faces and smiles looking at you and declaring you "Best Mama in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD"..... Priceless

When taking them to the library and picking out more than 10 books to read, to haul them all home, pile up on the couch, teens too, to hear Mama read a story, complete with silly faces, and voices...... Priceless

When holding their hand as they are trembling with fear as they face a challenge, and letting them know that they are NOT alone that HE is there HE cares, and I am there and I care..... Priceless

Through every single prayer on their behalf for their future, including their spouse, their jobs, their friends, and their lives.  To pray for their relationships with HIM to growing stronger and stronger with each day passing.... Priceless

In getting to wake up each and every morning, for every do-over I am blessed with.... Priceless

"Few can duplicate our loving touch.  What price tag can be placed on the sense of warmth and comfort we bring to our home?"  

Today I am overwhelmed by HIS loving grace in giving me the much needed wake-up-call, and do-over to show me that being Mama to my amazing, precious five children is truly priceless.   Words fail me to say how thankful, grateful, and honored I am to have a LOVING SAVIOR WHO gave HIS life for me, so that I may live and spend eternity with HIM and OUR HEAVENLY FATHER.  The very thought that HE paid the ultimate price for my sins, all because HE loves me............ Priceless!!!!!!!!!!

Dear friends, I pray today that if you are struggling to know whether or not you matter, I pray that you will seek HIM and you will know that your life was written specifically on purpose for HIS purpose, to bring you back to HIM.  I pray that you will be filled with HIS love, comfort, and peace as you seek HIM, and ask HIM to transform and renew your heart to show you just how priceless you truly are to HIM.  I pray that you will know that NOTHING in this life is by chance, but rather to grow, strengthen, and renew your heart, to build, and give you the desire to seek HIM with all of your heart, soul, and mind, to know that HE is a truly LOVING GOD, and that OUR SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST is waiting for you to boldly declare that HE is LORD OF YOUR LIFE!!!  I pray that when you do HIS blessings and favor will be poured over your life, and NOTHING of this world will ever be able to compare........ then you will truly live your life knowing that HIS love for you is truly priceless.

Much love, prayers, and compassion,
Heather