let Faith arise.....

"Let faith arise in spite of 
what I see Lord I believe
But help my unbelief 
I choose to trust You
No matter what I feel, let faith arise
Let faith arise
For my champion's not dead, He is alive! 
Oh, and He already knows my every need 
Surely He will come and rescue me" Chris McClarney "GOD of Miracles"

"Lord JESUS let this be my daily hearts cry.  Let my Faith arise LORD.  Help me to SEE beyond what my eyes SEE in choosing to TRUST YOU in all that YOU are doing, have done, and will do.  LORD help me to overcome my unbelief that YOU have amazing plans for my life.  Even though within those amazing plans is not promised an easy, happy, fun filled life.  Rather YOU LORD, Steadfast, secure, my anchor that HOLDS STRONG in the storms of my life.  LORD that my Faith will arise through my circumstances, and will overcome my feelings of helplessness, hopelessness.... that no matter what I may be facing, feeling, or is happening to me that my Faith in YOU will arise.  LORD that the lyrics to this song will be embedded deep into my heart just as Cornerstone has.  LORD JESUS that I will always remember that YOU are indeed the GOD of miracles as YOU met me in the truck that night when my world shattered.  LORD JESUS that I remember to share YOUR message of HOPE of how YOU helped me in my time of suffering.  LORD JESUS that I speak of YOUR SUPERNATURAL LOVE that broke through my agony, my pain, sorrow, and suffering that threatened my very existence.  FATHER that I speak of YOUR goodness of how much YOU helped me navigate through this journey of loss.  LORD that I speak of YOUR PROMISES that I have seen come to fruition in my life.  LORD JESUS that with each and every step I take, I ask YOU GOD of miracles to come, to know to believe, to LIVE OUT, SHOUT OUT, that YOU ARE INDEED OUR GOD OF MIRACLES that YOUR SUPERNATURAL LOVE has broken through the darkness and brought me out into YOUR LIGHT.  LORD that I tell my story of how YOU rescued me so many times through this journey, that YOU LORD alone have brought me to my knees in tears of reverence.  NOT because of anything I did on my own LORD, but that YOU have done through me, for me, ALL for YOUR GLORY.  LORD that my story tells of WHO YOU are YOUR FAITHFULNESS, GENTLENESS, in leading me back to the stage on which I stood on October 19, 2014 telling the story of my son's life.  Celebrating his earthly life.  Leading me back to that stage on February 25, 2018 to reveal to me that each week that I face the stage, I can SEE the HOLY GROUND on which Seth's life, both earthly and eternally are celebrated.  LORD JESUS that ONLY YOU could have erased what the powers of hell wanted me to "see" to breakthrough my sorrow, my loss, my suffering.  LORD JESUS that you have planted firmly, deeply into my soul YOUR TRUTH of YOUR MESSAGE that has been written for my life, to speak to share, to teach me that I couldn't possibly understand the power of YOUR MESSAGE within me, until I realized, and fully could grasp on which the HOLY GROUND I stand on.  LORD JESUS that when I speak YOUR NAME, no matter where I am, I am on HOLY GROUND, I am rooted, planted firmly, to speak, to share, that YOUR PRESENCE will be felt as I witness to the masses.  LORD JESUS that YOU LORD are preparing me for this moment in time, to share my story that YOU LORD ARE THE GOD OF MIRACLES.  Thank YOU JESUS for loving me, with unconditional love.  Thank YOU for YOUR unending grace, overwhelming me with just how much patience YOU have for me to learn WHO YOU are to experience what it means to be YOURS.  Thank YOU JESUS for rescuing this little girl lost, that I am NOT abandoned, I am wanted, cherished, and delighted in.  Thank YOU JESUS for all YOU have done for me, through me, and to me.  LORD JESUS that in all circumstances and steps that I may take let Faith arise.  Oh how I love YOU JESUS, Amen."

"God of miracles come

We need Your supernatural 
love to break through
Nothing's impossible
You're the God of miracles"

I struggle to even put into words how I am feeling these days.  Yesterday as the worship team played this song, I was overcome with tears in reverence.  I had already been crying the entire time I was there, and when the lyrics played into my heart, I was overcome.  Overcome by thankfulness that HE has healed me enough in my journey to hear not only the message yesterday, but to also sing this song as I felt the moment where it was my turn to let Faith arise.  The breakthrough I desperately needed, and clung to HIS promises for had come!!!!  My GOD, My ABBA, My GOD OF MIRACLES broke through with HIS Supernatural love, showed me that even losing my son..... I could overcome the grief.... the sorrow.... in a way that was honoring.  Not that HE would take away my sadness, tears, or even sorrow...but living in sorrow and grief was killing me.  I was losing my grip in the fight, and HE knew it, and in the moment where I felt I couldn't go on any longer, HE stepped in with HIS Supernatural love and rescued me.  

A rescue that was through obedience in my fellow Brothers and Sisters in CHRIST JESUS.  Obedience to answer HIS calling to reach out, to press through the darkness, to SHINE HIS LIGHT to SPEAK HIS TRUTH, TO BOLDLY PROCLAIM HIS PROMISES for my life.  TO speak HIS TRUTH DEEP INTO MY weary heart that My CHAMPION is NOT DEAD.... HE IS ALIVE!!!  A rescue that has saved me from giving into the sorrow, and accepting this narrative that my enemy wanted me to live.  A rescue that has brought me back to my feet, filled me with more strength, and power to endure..... to run this race, my race Fearlessly.  Not on my own doing, rather BOLDLY proclaiming that HE is the GOD of miracles, and with HIM NOTHING is impossible.  

"Let faith arise and see the kingdom come

I lift my eyes, oh
for the battle has been won
My God is faithful, oh 
and every single word
He said is true, oh"

As I type, my eyes are filled with more tears of reverence as the lyrics above are my TRUTH, HIS TRUTH, HIS HOPE that is alive in me.  I'm weepy with tears as it's so overwhelming to me that HE has saved me, rescued me from overwhelming despair.  That not even my son's death would destroy me, pull me away from HIM, or that I would lose my life, both earthly and eternally.  I am overwhelmed by HIS supernatural love, love that I can't even begin to describe.  How I long for the world to know, to experience HIS supernatural love.

"This world is shaking
but You cannot be shaken
My heart is breaking 
but I'm not broken yet
Your love is fearless 
Help me to be courageous too
Oh there is nothing impossible" 

In a time where my world was shaken, HE was steadfast, HE was my solid ROCK Foundation, and HE made sure I remembered that in meeting me in the truck that tragic night to remind me of WHO HE IS.  HE knew my heart was shattered, and knew how much I needed HIM, and HE stepped in and poured HIS Supernatural love into me.  HE gave me breath that night to speak.... to sing..... to cry out to HIM.  HE took me on a journey of HIS fearless love, that pursued me..... relentlessly...... to teach me..... to lead me..... to guide me.... to be courageous..... fearless..... all through HIS Supernatural love..... all BECAUSE HE IS THE GOD OF MIRACLES..... and in my journey has lovingly taught me to let Faith arise.

My Dear Brothers and Sisters in CHRIST JESUS, though your hearts may be broken, I pray that you will answer HIS gentle knock on your heart.  That you will be radically transformed by HIS Supernatural love, as HE is indeed the GOD of Miracles.  I pray that the lies of the enemy.... this world.... will be shut down, shut up, and shut out with HIS Supernatural love.  That you will know that with HIM NOTHING is impossible, that through HIM, with HIM you can overcome anything, and HE will be with you through it all.  Dear ones.... I pray that you will come to a point in your journey where tears of sorrow will turn to tears of reverence as you experience, SEE, and feel HIS supernatural love.  That you too will be able to tell your story that HE IS THE GOD OF MIRACLES.

always with so much love, compassion, and understanding,

Your Sister in CHRIST JESUS,

~Heather