Thankfully this morning, I felt HIS gentle nudge for me to get out of bed, restart my routine, of my alone time with HIM, so that I would be able to hear HIS whispers, and most importantly heed HIS whispers. HIS Daily Teachings today is revealing to me just how distracted I have become, and in allowing that to happen, WHO I have become is someone I don't even recognize. Today HE is showing me what has happened to my thoughts, words, and most importantly my actions in allowing myself to become distracted.
Oh where to begin, you mean about the hurtful, awful, deadly thoughts I have had in the past five days? Thoughts where I have wished ill will on the drivers who have cut me off. Thoughts of wanting to send my ungrateful children away. Thoughts of my husband being a jerk. Thoughts of being tired, most importantly (to me anyways) sick and tired of everyone getting on my nerves. Just sitting here typing it all out, brings stinging tears to my eyes, as I have seen where I have fallen so short of HIS glory for my life in the past five days.
HE is wanting me to know that it is never too late to begin again, and that when I repent, and seek HIM, HE will meet my distracted self right where I am. HE is telling me that HE has allowed myself to become distracted so that I would be able to see WHO I am without HIM. It is no coincidence to me that I woke up this morning singing, "Imagine me without YOU" by Jaci Velasquez "Imagine me without You, I'd be lost and so confused. I wouldn't last a day. I'd be afraid without You there to see me through. Imagine me without You, Lord, You know it's just impossible. Because of You, it's all brand new. My life is now worth while. I can't imagine me without You." Upon looking up the lyrics for this song, I have been sitting here listening to it, and I have begun to realize just WHO I am without HIM.