Sunday, July 27, 2014

tomorrow is NOT today

So I have this problem, I, Heather, too often worry about everything!  I worry about what our family will eat, clothes they will wear, school supplies, will we have enough for living expenses for the month.  What about what house we will live in next, where will we live?  Will we ever be able to join a life group at church?  I worry about communication with my husband, my children.  I worry about communication between my husband and children. I worry about my children's future, and will they have a good life.  I worry for my husbands health, and my health, and well then I worry about my children's health as have I passed on to many horrible eating habits to them.   I worry, worry , worry...... wayyyyy too much!  I worry that I worry too much, I worry what I am missing out because I am worrying.  I worry that I won't be able to stop worrying.... okay, so now I'm completely annoying myself, but I think you get the picture.  

HIS Daily Teachings today is HIS loving way of shaking me upside down and bringing me to my knees there after to reveal to me that tomorrow is NOT today, therefore I must NOT worry about tomorrow.  I must be focused on living today, right now, right here in this moment. 

"Any concern too small to be turned up into a prayer, is too small to be a burden."  Corrie Ten Boom

HE is telling me that instead of worrying so much about our future, I need to be praying to HIM about what is on my heart, therefore I will then be able to concentrate on listening and doing what HE is telling me to do. HE is telling me that I waste far too much time on worrying about what tomorrow will bring, that I am totally missing out on living today, right here in this moment, and seeing all of HIS wonderful blessings that HE is pouring over my life, and my families life.  

I had to laugh a little when I started journaling today's teaching, as I realized it was a teaching I "tried" to force the other day, and even wrote almost a whole blog about.  Too my surprise, HE had me delete it yesterday.   In realizing that I began to question why, as I had already typed today's blog, and well of course I know that when I seek, and ask HIM HE answers, and HIS answer this morning is SIMPLY this, "tomorrow is NOT today!"

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

"Each day contains all we can handle -- we don't need to be concerned about more than today." Joyce Meyer "100 Ways to Simplify Your Life"

HE is telling me that its time I start focusing on today, living today, as it comes, and allow HIM to reveal what HE is doing in this moment, and let tomorrow come as it will, and know that HE will be right there with me tomorrow, just as HE is today.  HE is wanting me to know that I must surely know by now that HE is always there, and that HE always will be.  HE is telling me that worrying about tomorrow, only brings stress into my life, when HE has been trying to teach me the utmost importance of choosing to live with HIS true freedom by choosing to life with HIS JOY.

HE is wanting me to know that choosing JOY means that no matter what may be happening today, tomorrow is NOT today, therefore, no matter how bad things may be in this moment, I must trust that HE has it already worked out for my own good.  HE is telling me this morning that HE is always working on my behalf, and that HE wants nothing more than to shower me with HIS blessings and HIS favor.

D's parents are visiting with us this weekend, and they have been married almost 46 years this October.  In fact when we celebrate 16 years of marriage, two days later they will celebrate 46 years.  In talking with them about what their secret is to a good marriage, D's mom said, "You never give up, when times get tough, you just never give up on each other."  They are the parents of six children, and sixteen grandchildren, and have been together, since well....as I am always joking with her since birth.  They grew up together in the same small town, and D's dad worked the same job for almost their entire marriage, and retired a few years ago.  With six children I'm sure life threw its challenges at them, and through it all they stayed strong, and stayed together.  D's mom used to always say to me, "why do you worry, as it doesn't do any good to worry, it only hurts you."  How true those words are to me this morning, I must remember that tomorrow is NOT today!

HE is telling me that just as D's parents made it because of their FAITH in HIM, and each other, it didn't matter what today brought, and they didn't live in tomorrow, as they understood that tomorrow is NOT today.  HE is wanting me to know that HE has placed them in my life as a model for D and I to what a GODLY marriage looks like.  Through it all, no matter what keeping HIM the center, and the KNOT, will enable us to live today, right here in this moment, and will give us HIS true confidence so that we won't have to worry about what tomorrow will bring.

HE is reminding me of HIS gift to me and that is HIS amazing grace, that of which enables me to handle whatever comes my way today.  HE is telling me that HE can't and won't give me tomorrow's grace, as tomorrow is NOT today.  HE is telling me that it is imperative that I learn that I can't expect to live a JOY filled life if I am concentrating on my game plan for tomorrow, and totally missing out on living today.

HE is telling me that HIS amazing grace is HIS power given unto me so that I will then be able to conquer each day with victory as I choose to live out HIS true plan, and true purpose for my life.  HE is wanting me to know that whatever it is that I am facing today, HE is with me.  HE is telling me that HE won't give up on me, and HE will never forsake me, and that HIS grace today is only for today.  HE is making HIMSELF heard this morning and that is "Tomorrow is NOT today!!!!!"

" No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us" Romans 8:37

I, Heather must remember to NOT worry about anything, but rather to cast all of my worries, anxieties, and fears upon HIM, as HE is the ONE WHO cares for me.  HE is there and HE will help me overcome today's challenges.  In knowing that, I must understand that just as HE helps me today, HE will do the same for tomorrow.  I must write it on my heart, Tomorrow is NOT today!

" Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you" 1 Peter 5:7

HE is telling me that in order to live today with HIS teachings, I must first seek HIM and ask HIM for HIS Daily Teachings.  In seeking HIM, I must be willing to live out what HE is teaching me today, NOT worry about what HIS Daily Teachings will be for tomorrow, as I am learning that Tomorrow is NOT today!

HE is telling me that when I choose to live in this moment, I won't fear the future, as I know that HE is already there, and HE is already working on my behalf.  HE already has everything worked out for my own good.  I am learning that this is WHY I must choose to put all of my FAITH and TRUST in HIM, so that I will be able to choose to live with HIS TRUE JOY, and be able to rest in the fact that HE already has tomorrows worries handled as well.

Dear Friends, I pray today that you will know that HE is here in your today, walking with you, waiting for you too seek HIM.  I pray today that you will have the courage to seek HIM, and ask HIM to reveal to you what HE is doing in your life, and the live's around you.  I pray today that you will be filled with HIS peace that HE is there, working on your behalf, and that you too will be able to let go of worrying about tomorrow, as you will know that Tomorrow is NOT today.  I pray for HIS favor and blessings to be poured over your life when you choose to live your life with HIS TRUE JOY.  

blessings,
Heather 






Saturday, July 26, 2014

walk the line

I have become more aware as each day passes that the more I seek HIM, the more I seem to walk the line. The line for me consists of decisions that I a making in either my thoughts, words, or actions.  Most often I make good decisions that of which bring all praise, honor, and glory to HIM.  Most often...... however, in the times where I don't make good decisions it seems as if in those moments where I allow myself to become derailed, and I cross the line.  It never fails that the moment that I realize that I have once again crossed the line, I become depressed, and lose all HIS true confidence in "thinking" how can I, Heather write about things, and yet still struggle with what I view as being the most basic to being CHRIST LIKE.  

HIS Daily Teachings today is HIS loving reminder that each day I walk the line, HE is right there beside me, helping me, leading me.  HE is telling me that I cross the line, when I choose to follow the flesh and NOT HIS SPIRIT.  Yesterday was a perfect example of the inner struggle that I have been having with myself lately.  In my desire to be more like JESUS with each day passing, I don't want ever to be viewed as judgmental.  So rather than choosing to stand firm in my FAITH and my beliefs, I falter, as I begin to compromise that I wouldn't want to offend anyone.  In my quest to NOT offend, as I walk the line, I end up getting tripped by the line, and in turn I fail to do my part in bringing HIS KINGDOM of HEAVEN here to Earth.

In my quest to be more like HIM, I "think" that this is just merely me wanting it, NOT really HIM leading me.  HE is telling me that I didn't just come up with this idea one day to seek HIM, for HIM to teach, lead, and guide me, rather I was created to crave HIM to help me in my journey as I encounter the times of having to walk the line.  

Yesterday in the social media world, a blog was written as to why American Women shouldn't see the new Fifty Shades of Grey movie when it comes out this Valentine's Day.  The blog was written by a male WHO in fact did an incredible job at keeping it biblically based as to the reason WHY HIS word is against such movies and books etc.  I knew the moment I let anyone know that I liked the blog that the challenge would be issued. 

As I have written in the past, I myself had read this particular series of books, and in hindsight I wish I hadn't. NOT because is distorted my view on my marriage, or created a desire to change my husband, but rather because in my quest to be more like HIM, I realized that I offended HIM, as that is NOT what HE is wanting me to spend my time on.  

"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will" Romans 12:2

Since reading that blog yesterday and praying about what it meant for my life, I kept thinking about what HIS word says about NOT conforming to the patterns of this world.  HE is telling me that the days of where my vision is of the flesh, but rather I must seek HIS vision so that I will be able to see the evil of this world. HE is wanting me to know that when I walk the line, it is the line between good and evil, flesh and spirit. 

"So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh." Galatians 5:16

HE is teaching me this morning that while I may understand where someone who walks by the flesh is coming from in saying that books, movies, etc. are merely just for entertainment purposes, I, Heather a CHRIST follower for going on 12 years now know that I am to walk by HIS spirit, and that means I must choose to say NO to the desires of my flesh.  HE is reminding me that when I give in to my fleshy desires, that I miss out on HIS blessings, and sometimes those blessings are merely protecting me in my walk, so that while I am on this journey with HIM, when it comes to being able to walk the line, I won't fall to temptation, and therefore I will continue on my journey towards wholeness with HIM.  

HE is reminding me that the world that I live in is the devil's playground.  HE is telling me that in everyone through everything, Satan is trying to corrupt each and every living being to come to the dark side.  HE is showing me that I am to model what walk the line looks like to other CHRIST followers, and for those who don't even know JESUS.  This means that for my life, I must choose to let go of NOT wanting to seem judgmental, but rather to speak HIS words, HIS TRUTH, about whatever does NOT line up with HIS word. 

HE is telling me that my need of "feeling" approved by people is NOT something I need to worry about. HE is wanting me to know that even though I have fallen to temptation in reading and watching things that are NOT GOD honoring, doesn't mean that I don't have the choice now to make the right choice while I walk the line, as I know that with HIM I will be able to overcome any and all temptation. 

" No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,[c] he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13

“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Matthew 26:41

" Those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction." 1 Timothy 6:9

It is NOT surprising to me that today's Power Thought by Joyce Meyer is:  "I am free from human judgment because of WHO I am in CHRIST!"    

A few weeks ago while shopping at Sam's Club I came across a book called "The Approval Fix" by Joyce Meyer, it appeared to be quick read, however every time I tried to read it, I ended up "feeling" as if though it didn't really apply to my life.  Foolishly I "thought" well now at least there's one problem I don't have.

This morning however, HE has captured my heart once again to show me the error of my ways.  HE is wanting me to rest in the fact that HE loves me all of the time, no matter what I think, say, or do.  HE is telling me that HE sends this reminder to me NOT so that I can freely make mistakes, but rather to show me HIS unconditional, unfailing, unending, relentless love and grace.   HE is showering me with HIS grace this morning in showing me how in seeking the approval of others, I have allowed myself to be tempted while I walk the line in seeking to be more like HIM.  

HE is telling me that when I walk the line it is full of temptation to NOT having to go through my life "feeling" wrong, insecure, and rejected.  HE is wanting me to know that as HIS daughter, I must know that I am loved, and that even when other people don't show love to me, or even like to me, that I need NOT to worry about what they think, but rather to keep chasing after HIM, running straight to HIS open and loving arms.  

HE is wanting me to walk the line with HIS perspective of WHO I am, and in choosing that I will in turn learn to love myself just as HE loves me.  HE is telling me that when I choose to love myself it won't really matter whether or not I "feel" as if though I am approved by others, or if they really love and accept me.  

HE is telling me that HIS plan does NOT consist of me becoming derailed and losing my self-confidence.  Rather that I seek HIM with all that I am, so that I will then be able to live with HIS true confidence of WHO I am , because I know WHOSE I am.   HE is wanting me to know that it is time that I stop worrying about pleasing people, and starting bringing all Praise, Honor, and Glory to HIS HOLY, JUST, and RIGHTEOUS Name!  

HE is wanting me to know that it is because I was raised by people who only showed me love and affection when I purposely sought their approval, and and times did whatever it took to get their approval.  HE is telling me that those days are gone, and I have been made new, and that means that I am free to be me, Heather, Daughter of the KING.  Daughter to the ONE TRUE LIVING GOD, WHO lives in me, through me, and is teaching, leading, and guiding me every single step of this long journey that I am on with HIM.  

Today is a new start with a fresh perspective of WHO I am called to be.  Today am so incredibly thankful for HIS mercy, and grace.  Today I am caught up in HIS love, and wrapped in HIS loving arms.  Today I am running straight to HIM, declaring HIM once again my LORD and SAVIOR, and saying that I am NOTHING without HIM.  Today I choose to speak HIS words, HIS TRUTH about WHO HE is, WHAT HE has done, WHAT HE is doing, and WHAT HE will continue to do!  Today I am NOT ashamed to say that I walk the line with HIM leading me, and though I may falter, all I have to do is cry out to HIM, and HE will set me back on the right side of the line. 

Dear Friends, I pray that you know that HE knows your heart.  HE sees your struggles, and knows your pain.  HE knows your addictions, and knows all about your low self-esteem, and loss of self-confidence.  I pray that you will know that HE is there, waiting for you to seek HIM, to restore, renew, and refine you to teach you all about WHO you are, because HE will fill you with HIS true confidence in knowing WHOSE you are!  I pray today that you will be filled with HIS peace and comfort as HE begins to show you the error of your ways.  I pray that you too will be able to say no to your flesh, and say YES to HIS SPIRIT, as you too walk the line. 

With much love, prayers, understanding, and always compassion,

Heather 


Monday, July 21, 2014

"The Hurried Life"

So you may have noticed that I haven't written the blog in quite some time.  The reason being is I have misplaced my glasses.... er scratch that, the reason being is because while HE has been trying to teach me this concept for the past week, I have been way too busy focusing on living "The Hurried Life."  

I only just realized this after thinking about the message at church yesterday.  Our Pastor was talking about its okay to live a busy life, doing the things that HIS HOLY SPIRIT is leading you to do.  As long as you have a balance of sitting at HIS feet for HIS teachings, and then doing HIS good works.  That is a busy life.  However, when he spoke about living "The Hurried Life," I cringed and began to sink further into my chair, as I knew that HE was speaking to me, and  HIS message was coming in loud and clear!

So I guess I should share what happened last week  Currently D and I are searching for a new home for our family of seven, as we feel as though we need to be closer to our church.  As of right now we live almost 45 minutes away on a weeknight, and 30 minutes on Sundays.  This isn't a problem on Sundays, but weeknights for our teens to go to youth group, and for my women's bible study on Monday nights this poses a HUGE challenge for us.  Most weeks we don't make it to our groups, as traffic is horrendous.  If that weren't enough of a challenge, because of the distance we aren't able to serve in our church, and that is something that we as a family love to do.  

Anyways, back to moving, so naturally in knowing that we are wanting to move, I, Heather, self designated "control freak" decide that I am the only one who can find us the perfect home.  Ehhh, just typing that out makes me sink further into my chair.  In my "control freak" frame of mind, I had this "revelation" one that I felt was of brilliance, and I couldn't wait to share it with D when he got home from work.  

I spent most of the afternoon talking about it, building it up, and getting ready to talk to D about it, by telling my kids all about it.  I spent so much energy focusing on what I "thought" was an amazing plan for our family, and so as soon as D walked in the door I did what any normal rational person would do.  I pounced, and NOT just pounced, rather I came in like a hurricane, and swept him off of his feet.  No sooner did I finish telling him my completely brilliant plan, did I begin to ask him what he thought.  

This makes me laugh now as I know how D is, and I know that he was probably thinking, "are you serious woman?  I've worked all day, had a rough day answering questions and meeting demands, could you give me a minute to get my shoes off, and eat some dinner?"  I can assure you that his pause that day was no laughing matter for me, and instead of be gracious enough to let him process, I began to allow myself to be become upset. (insert irrational thinking followed by completely irrational speaking)

HIS Daily Teachings today is showing me how I have been living "The Hurried Life," and in return I have been missing out HIS wonderful blessings that HE has been wanting to pour over my life, and the lives of whom I encounter.  Today HE has re-introduced me to a book that HE had me start to read last Friday, however in my humanness, in "thinking" that I, Heather knew better what plans I should have for my life, I failed to see that HE was telling me that in choosing to live "The Hurried Life," I have been foolish.

"The feeling of being hurried is not usually the result of living a full life and having no time.  It is, on the contrary, born of a vague fear that we are wasting our life.  When we do not do the one thing we ought to do, we have no time for anything else --  We are the busiest people in the world."  Eric Hoffer

HE is wanting me to know today that I haven't been living my life to the fullest, as I have been wasting time in choosing to live "The Hurried Life."  HE is teaching me that I have been in such a hurry to, hurry up and figure everything out as soon as a problem arises.  HE is telling me that I must NOT allow myself to become to arrogant in "thinking" that what I view as "brilliance" get in the way of what HE is doing in my life, by working in me, and through me.  I must keep myself open to receive HIS Daily Teachings.

HE is letting me know today that the reason why it took me so long to hear HIM this past week, was because I was so focused on living my life according to my own agenda, and thus choosing to live "The Hurried Life."  HE is showing me that had I just chosen to shut my mouth, and be patient for longer than 5 seconds, I would have seen where HE was working in my life in those moments, and I wouldn't have wasted an entire week trying to hurry it all up.  

Today HE is wanting me to know that HE isn't teaching me this to make me feel bad, rather to teach me to depend on HIM.  HE is reminding me that I have been praying for HIM to teach me how to TRUST HIM without borders, therefore I must choose to NOT get all bent out of shape whenever things aren't going according to my brilliant plans.  I must choose to BE STILL, and know that HE IS GOD!  Psalm 46:10

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Philippians 4:6

"Anxious people are always trying to live ahead of where they currently are."  Joyce Meyer "100 Ways to Simplify Your Life" 

How true these words are for me.  Through HIS loving guidance this morning HE is revealing to me that just because in my past life I didn't know HIM, and I lived a life that at every turn I was being hurt, with HIM through my FAITH I am more than able to TRUST HIM completely that HE has everything worked out for my own good.  HE is showing me that my TRUST issues, are also HEART issues.  HE is teaching me that because I have been so traumatized in the past with people living "The Hurried Life" by choosing to live their lives according to their own agenda's, and in return completely ruining any and all chances of me being able to fully TRUST anyone, including HIM.

This is a tough pill to swallow for me, as I have felt like I do TRUST HIM, when in all actuality HE has been revealing to me for over a year now that I don't fully TRUST HIM.  In seeking what HE has been trying to teach me, its all become almost unbearable to face, as I know I can't do this life without HIM.  I know that I need HIM to be my EVERYTHING in absolutely EVERYTHING in my life!

"They spend today trying to figure out tomorrow and the result is the loss of simplicity."  Joyce Meyer "100 Ways to Simplify Your Life"

Today HE is revealing to me that the description of above describes me to a "T" ..... In knowing this I can now look back on last week and see with HIS vision how I wasted my entire week last week by allowing myself to become anxious, and worried.  HE is letting me know that I was to "busy" living "The Hurried Life," in trying to wrap my little human brain around what I viewed as an enormous problem to overcome.

This morning HE is taking me back to a saying that I read quite some time ago and that is, "Instead of telling GOD how BIG your problems are, tell your problem how BIG your GOD IS!"  HE is taking me back to when I read "The Circle Maker," by Mark Batterson to remind me how I must choose to pray about the things that overwhelm me, and that I in my humanness can't begin to wrap my mind around.

HE is wanting me to know that HE delights in being able to make the impossible, more than possible in my life.  HE is telling me that HE wants me to continue to pray audacious prayers, to pray with HIS true confidence, that HE is fighting on my behalf, for me, and that HE will always make everything come together for my good.   HE is wanting me to know that in everything that I encounter in my HE is showing me just how good HE is, and NOT just good, but GREAT!  HE is telling me that in choosing to pray audacious prayers, that is how I will let go of living "The Hurried Life."  

"GOD expects us to TRUST HIM with tomorrow."  Joyce Meyer "100 Ways to Simplify Your Life"

HE is telling me that in order to let go of living "The Hurried Life,"  I must choose to practice living each moment that I am giving as if though they were my last.  HE is telling me that in order to live the life that HE has planned for me I must choose to embrace each moment, and TRUST HIM that even though I may NOT be able to figure things out, I can rest in HIM that HE surely does.  This is why I know that HE is always telling me "TRUST in ME, REST in ME"  

HE is wanting me to know that in order to do what HE is telling me, I must choose to give all of my thoughts, my words, and my actions.  HE is telling me that I must give HIM all of  me and be ready for HIM to teach, lead, and guide me every single step of my journey towards wholeness with HIM.

HE is telling me that instead of living "The Hurried Life," where I tear through this life that I have been blessed with at break-neck speed, I must choose to give myself fully to HIM, so that I will then be a part of HIS blessings that HE is waiting to pour over my life, and the lives that HE is using me as HIS living vessel to reach through my hott mess, which is HIS beautiful message of HOPE, to show those who are hurting that HE is there, HE is good, and HE is waiting for them, to help them, and to guide them on their journey towards wholeness with HIM.

Today is the start of the next chapter of my journey with HIM with HIM teaching me how to TRUST Without Borders, where I know that HE is always working on my behalf, and HE is always making everything come together for my good.  Today I am saying goodbye to living "The Hurried Life," by choosing to live "The Trust Without Borders Life."  

Dear Friends, I pray today that you will be able to view  my story, as an encouragement that HE is there, and HE is always working behind the scenes.  I pray that you will be able to give your all to HIM, to know and to TRUST HIM that HIS plans for your life are amazing.  I pray today that you too will have the courage to say goodbye to living "The Hurried Life," and that you will be able to start living "The TRUST Without Borders Life."  I pray that when you do you will then be able to see and be a part of HIS wonderful blessings that HE is waiting to pour over your life, and the lives of whom you encounter.

With much prayers, understanding, love, and blessings,
Heather 


Wednesday, July 16, 2014

focus


Lately I am finding myself doing things without HIS guidance, and haven't really thought about what HE would want me to do, until after I've already done them.  It is though I am saying, "HEY GOD I've got this all under control, just wait for me to become a train wreck, then I'll let you take over."  This is NOT how I want to live my life, but for some reason, I am really having a hard time remembering to focus on thinking, saying, and doing what HE has called me to do.

HIS Daily Teachings today is reminding me to through everything that is happening in my life, I must remember to focus.  HE is wanting me to know that in the times where I go off by myself, and become a train wreck that is when HE uses those moments to teach me, that I, Heather, am NOT capable of navigating this life without HIM.  HE is wanting me to know that I must learn to TRUST HIM without ANY borders, so that HE can create in me a heart, soul, and mind just as HE has always intended for me to have.

This morning, I should have realized that the moment I started journaling that HE would meet me right where I was.  As soon as my pen hit the paper, of course the first line that I wrote was, "LORD JESUS, help me to stay focused on what you want me to think, say, and do!  I am NOT doing so well on my own!" As I continued to pour my heart out to HIM, HE began to reveal HIS presence to me, and I could sense that HIS Daily Teachings today would be showing me that it is ALL about focus.  

Naturally as I began to read though today's Power Thoughts Devotional by Joyce Meyer, the title said it all, "It's a Matter of Focus"    It was then that I realized once again, through another one of HIS loving me, and meeting me right in that very moment, knowing full well what was on my  heart, long before I even knew what was on my heart.  I began to read through what she said, and it struck me as of course, of course it would be all about what HE has been trying to get my attention about since this past Sunday.  

On Sunday at church, we sang "Oceans" by Hillsong and when I sang the verse "SPIRIT lead me where my trust is without borders,"  I felt my heart cry out to HIM, "LORD this is what I NEED!" As soon as we finished worshipping, our Pastor stood up, and spoke about that very verse, and what it means for our lives.  

In looking back on my life with HIM, I can see how much HE has lead me through, so WHY?!? on Earth do I forget what HE has done, is still doing, and will continue to do? Today HE is letting me know that it is because I am forgetting that it is truly a matter of focus.  HE is wanting me to know that until I get my heart, soul, and mind OFF of my own agenda, and seek HIM with ALL my heart, soul, mind, and strength, I will keep failing to TRUST HIM without borders.  

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding" Proverbs 3:5

HE is telling me that in order for me to keep my focus on HIM, I must first remember to lean on HIM.  This means that I must seek HIM, to teach, lead, and guide me, and NOT try and figure things out for myself.  So often, I, Heather, think that my human thinking, is so much better than what HE has planned for my life.  HE is wanting me to remember that HIS plans for my life are amazing, therefore I must remember that in order to live the life HE has planned for me, I must remember to lean on HIM.

HE is wanting me to know that the way that I will be able to focus on HIM and HIS teachings, is by putting ALL of my TRUST in HIM.  Today HE is challenging me once again to TRUST HIM without borders.  HE is wanting me to TRUST HIM with absolutely every single aspect of my life.  HE is wanting me to realize that if though I can't, in my humanness figure things out, I must remember to keep my focus on HIM, and HE will take me through whatever it is that HE has lead me to.  HE is telling me that in order to overcome, I must remember to keep my focus on HIM.

HE is telling me that in order for me to TRUST HIM without borders, I must choose to live with HIS true confidence that even though I may NOT be able to see a solution to my problems, I must remember that HE has amazing plans for my life. 

" For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

HE is wanting me to know that, I  must choose to remember that HE is always there, and that HE is always fighting on my behalf.  I must choose to focus, by meditating on HIS word that HE is doing a good work in me, and HE will continue to do a good work, HIS work, in me.  I must choose to remember that HE is the only one WHO knows what is best for me, and HE is the ONE WHO does indeed love me best!

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6

HE is telling me that keeping and maintaining focus means that I must choose to love and BELIEVE HIM with ALL of my heart, soul, mind, and strength!  HE is wanting me to know and fully understand that the time has come in my life where I must choose to NOT rely on my own understanding but to mediate on HIS word, HIS promises that with HIM, I can absolutely OVERCOME any test, trail, or storm in my life.  I must choose to remember that while I may have been caught off guard, HE is already there, and HE already has everything worked out for my own good.  

" Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength" Mark 12:30

HE is wanting me to know that in order for me to fully understand what focus looks like in my life, I must first understand that even though I may have fallen short in my past, HIS grace is all sufficient for me, and it is truly ALL I need.  

"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me" 2 Corinthians 12:9

Joyce Meyers words are really speaking to me today about what I need to focus on.  In her devotional she writes, "when we worry, whatever is in our hearts, eventually comes out of our mouths."  This I know to be true for me, as I am seeing as HE is taking me back to the last few days that the things that I have chosen to focus on are the very things that are leading me straight into the train wreck that has been the last few days.

"Make a tree good and its fruit will be good, or make a tree bad and its fruit will be bad, for a tree is recognized by its fruit. You brood of vipers,how can you who are evil say anything good? For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.  A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. But I tell you that everyone will have to give account on the day of judgment for every empty word they have spoken. For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.” Matthew 12:33-37

HE is teaching me that every time I lose focus and faith to do what HE has called me to do, that is when I am doing the part that Satan is tempting me to do in bringing his evil here to Earth, thus spreading it everywhere I go.  HE is wanting me to know that in order to stop the spreading of evil I must choose to focus by meditating on HIS words, HIS truth by answering HIS calling for my life by choosing to speak HIS words, and live out HIS truth,  in order for me to do my part of bringing HIS Kingdom of HEAVEN here to Earth.  

"Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me." Matthew 16:24

HE is telling me that in choosing to focus on HIM, and NOT my problems, that is how I will be able to avoid the train wrecks in my daily walk.  Joyce Meyer, says it like this: "The more we think and talk about our problems the larger they become."  This is so very true for my life, and in knowing this I know that this is the reason why it is absolutely imperative that I get my heart soul and mind focused on what HE wants me to do, and let go of my own agenda. 

HE is telling me that in order for me to overcome I must get my focus OFF of my problems, and reset my focus by meditating  on HIS word, HIS truth, and HIS promises.  HE is wanting me to write it on my heart, and to speak it, scream it, and shout it to ALL who will hear that HE is GOD, HE is GOOD and HE is FAITHFUL ALL of the time!

I am currently reading an amazing book by Ann Voskamp  titled "One Thousand Gifts."  In her book she writes of a challenge that someone sent her about writing out one thousand things she is thankful for.  This book is written so perfectly for me, as it speaks so intimately to my heart of the things I long for, and I secretly cry out for in my pain and anguish to be more like HIM.  In seeking for there to be so much more of HIM in me, and for there to be so much less of me, I am so incredibly thankful to be reading this book.  Today I am  at the beginning of my own One Thousand Gifts, and my first one is this "I am so thankful that HE loves me so much, that HE always meets me right where I am, right here in the messy middle of my full of faith walk, to wavering faith walk."  

Today I am thankful to know that even though I don't realize how far I have ran away from HIM and HIS teachings, HE is right there, waiting for me to see HIM.  HE is ready to reset my focus on HIM.  I am thankful that through each test, trial, and storm, HE is building, and strengthening my FAITH in HIM that HE loves me, cares for me, and knows what is best for me.  I am so incredibly blessed to be living this life that HE has chosen specifically for me to live.  Today i am embracing the messy middle, and praising HIM for HIS FAITHFULNESS.

Dear friends, I pray that if you too are struggling with focus, that you will have the courage to seek HIM, the ONE WHO knows and loves you best.  I pray that you will set aside your own agenda to see that HE has amazing plans for your life.  I pray that when you do, HE will being to reveal HIS plans for you through HIS vision, and that you too will then be able to shout it, scream it, and tell it to the masses that HE is GOD, HE is GOOD, and HE is FAITHFUL all of the time!

Praying many blessings and favor over your life today,
Heather 








Saturday, July 12, 2014

Fruit of the Spirit

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23

How many times have I failed in doing my part of living out HIS Fruit of the Spirit to my children?  Too many to count....When I think about my role as Mama, I sometimes can't help but to feel like a failure, as I struggle so much with being WHO HE has called me to be.  It seems as if though every time I am diligently working on NOT giving into my "feeling's" and seeking HIS truth, I fall short.  Something or someone always seems to trip me up. 


Thankfully I have a LOVING HEAVENLY FATHER WHO, loves me far too much to ever let me fall for very long.  HIS Daily Teachings today is showing me how I, Heather, Mama to five of HIS precious children, CAN do her part in living out HIS Fruit of the Spirit.  This morning HE is breaking it down for me one by one, and showing me where I have fallen short, and how I can pick it right back up, even when it seems as if though I'm heading straight into a train wreck.


" Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud." 1 Corinthians 13:4


HE is teaching me that too often when my children are doing something wrong, and I let them make their mistakes, each time I make the decision to boast to them that I was "right" I am NOT  loving them as HE is calling me to love them.  HE is wanting me to know that just as HIS love is unconditional, so should my love for my children be also.  HE is telling me that I must NOT be too proud to show my children my flaws in failing to teach HIS Fruit of the Spirit, rather I should embrace that I as their Mama have shortcomings too, and the most comforting thing to know is that HE is there, and HE will help me.  Therefore, I must choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of LOVE to my children.


"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds" James 1:2


HE is wanting me to know that it is imperative that I model choosing JOY to my children especially when times are tough.  Too often I get wrapped up in the conflict that is going on in our home, within their relationships, and through my aggravation I forget that HIS JOY is there, and it is waiting to be claimed by me.  I must model choosing HIS JOY for my children so that when they are struggling through a test, trial, or storm in their lives, they too will know that HE is there, that HE does care for them, and HE will help them.  

Therefore, I must choose to live boldly while modeling HIS FRUIT of JOY to my children.

"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God." Matthew 5:9


" Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27


HE is telling me that as I have been learning for the past eleven years, I, Heather am HIS child.  That means that I am a child of GOD.  HE is telling me that in knowing this, I must live out HIS calling for my life, and in doing that I must choose to live with HIS peace, even when things around me are starting to crumble.  HE is teaching me that this means I must choose to NOT get worked up about what is happening between my children, and instead, stand firmly in my FAITH in HIM, that in speaking HIS truth, and speaking with HIS love in my heart and mind, I will have the authority to bind the evil that is lurking and waiting to destroy each of the relationships between my children.  In knowing that I have the authority I am learning that this means that I must choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of PEACE to my children.


As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.  Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace." Ephesians 4:1-3


HE is reminding me that in choosing to be a CHRIST FOLLOWER I have agreed to come under HIS authority, and live my life according to HIS will.  This means that I am no longer concerned with what the world is telling me to do, and I am no longer making decisions based on what I want. HE is telling me that while everything within me is screaming to be angry, upset, and worked up, HE is wanting me to remember that HIS PEACE is within me, and in seeking HIS PEACE I will remember that HE works everything out for my own good.  In knowing this, I must choose to live my life this way for all to see, especially my children as they are the ones of WHOM HE has entrusted their lives to me.  I am learning that it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of PEACE to my children.  


"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" Romans 3:23

HE is wanting me to know and remember that when my children are doing something wrong, that is dishonoring to their sibling or myself, that I must remember that I too fall short of the glory of GOD in my thoughts and actions.  HE is reminding me of decisions that I have made in the past that have NOT brought PRAISE, HONOR, and GLORY to HIS name, therefore I must not be so hard on my children when they too have fallen short.  HE is telling me that this means when they make mistakes as children do, I must refrain from doing or saying whatever comes to my mind, so that I will be speaking  positive and encouraging, life building words to my children.  

As I was do the researching to what forbearance means this definition really spoke to me: "refraining from action: the fact of deliberately not doing or saying something when you could do or say it" bing.com I am learning that it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of FORBEARANCE to my children.

"She opens her mouth with wisdom,and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue" Proverbs 31:26

This morning HE is showing me that through almost every situation that I am dealing with conflict between either my children or myself, my biggest downfall is my mouth.  HE is teaching me that I must choose to only open my mouth if I am willing to speak HIS truth, otherwise, it's better for me to keep my mouth shut.  HE is telling me that it is my job, my calling to teach my children about KINDNESS,  and the importance of speaking with KINDNESS to everyone, even when someone has upset, or hurt you.  HE is wanting me to know that it is absolutely imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of KINDNESS  to my children.

"And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ." Philippians 1:6

HE is reminding me of this scripture that I memorized almost two years ago during a woman's bible study.  At the time I wasn't really sure how HE was working in me, or what that really meant for my life, but no more than ever I am understanding what this means for my life.  HE is wanting me to know that HE is filling me with HIS wisdom and HIS truth so that I will be able to teach them to my children.  This means that when things are difficult in their relationships with each other or with me, I, Heather, can be the mature one to speak with HIS truth and HIS authority to know that HE is doing a good work in all of us, and when we choose to live according to HIS will, and come under HIS authority  HIS GOODNESS and MERCY shall be showered upon us.  Therefore it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of GOODNESS to my children.

While reading today's "Power Thought" Joyce Meyer she quoted the scripture as this:  

"GOD is faithful (reliable, trustworthy, and therefore ever true to HIS promise, and HE can be depended on); by HIM you were called into companionship and participation with HIS SON, JESUS CHRIST our LORD." 1 Corinthians 1:9

HE is wanting me to know that no matter what is happening in my life, or my children's lives that HE is there that HE is FAITHFUL!  HE is wanting me to know that I need NOT to worry about how anything is going to work out, as I know I can trust HIM completely.  HE is telling me that instead of worrying about how I am going to care for each of my precious five children, I must seek HIM, and trust HIM that HE has each of our lives worked out, already planned and written on purpose for HIS purpose.  HE is wanting me to know that all I have to do is live my life according to HIS plan, in trusting HIM and BELIEVING HIM that HE has amazing plans for our family.  Therefore it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of FAITHFULNESS to my children.

" And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful.  Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will." 2 Timothy 2:24-26

A few weeks ago while scrolling through Facebook I came across a saying that spoke volumes to me:  "You don't have to accept every invitation to a fight that you receive"  This morning HE is reminding me of all of the times where I have fallen into the trap of showing up for a fight that wasn't even mine to begin with.  In accepting the invitation HE is teaching me that I have missed out HIS amazing Fruit of GENTLENESS that can be used to diffuse the fight, and NOT ignite the fight.  HE is reminding me of the times where I have allowed myself to become so emotionally invested in my "feelings" or my children's "feelings" that I have missed out an amazing opportunity to teach them by modeling HIS Fruit of GENTLENESS to them.  HE is teaching me once again the importance of writing HIS word on my  heart.  

"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." Proverbs 15:1

I know I have been writing this over and over again today, but I feel as if though HE can't say enough just how much it is imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of GENTLENESS to my children.  

" No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13

How many times have I just given into the temptations of shouting "SHUT UP!!!!!!!"  Sadly, this is a common phrase that you will hear around my house when my children are quarreling with one another.  That is usually the same time where I start to lose my cool, and give into the malicious thoughts that I am having in my head, and my mouth begins to run, without a care in the world.  HE is teaching me today that the reason that HE is focusing so intently on HIS Fruit of SELF CONTROL is that when it comes to modeling that for my children, that is the number one area where I have fallen the most short.  HE is telling me that I can, and will overcome my SELF CONTROL issues when I choose to live my life according to HIS will, and seek HIS words, and make them my words.  HE is wanting me to know that when I choose to live with SELF CONTROL I will then be modeling this to my children.  I am learning that it is incredibly imperative that I choose to live boldly while modeling HIS Fruit of SELF CONTROL to my children, so that they too will be able to overcome their own impulses.  

Today I am so incredibly thankful that HE has answered the cries of my heart.  I am so thankful to know that while I was writing in my journal all the things I have been struggling with, HE was already there, that my story has already been written.  That HE has everything worked out for my good.  I am so incredibly thankful and blessed to know that each day that I seek HIM, and ask HIM to teach, lead, and guide me HE does.  I am so thankful to feel HIS presence, and to see HIM working in NOT only my life, but the lives of my children.  Today I am so incredibly blessed to be living this life with my family, and knowing that even when we fall short, HIS grace, is more than enough. 

Dear Friends, I pray today that you will know that HE is FAITHFUL, that HE is a loving, caring, compassionate, giving, and always (when you repent) forgiving GOD.  I pray that you will seek HIM today, and HE will reveal HIS plans for you.  I pray that you will have the courage to walk the path that HE has chosen for you, and that you too will choose to live your life according to HIS Fruit of the Spirit.  I pray that when you do, you will be living a contagious life, that other's will stop and say to you, "What is it about you?  How are you able to maintain such peace in your life?"  I pray that HIS blessings and favor will be showered upon you when you choose to live according to HIS Fruit of the Spirit.

Many blessings, and lots of love,
Heather