When I hit the wall this morning my heart sank, as I struggled to even put two words together. In desperation to hear HIM I began to say, "LORD give me faith, help me to overcome my unbelief." True to HIS word, HE lead me straight to a song that says exactly what I am feeling right in this very moment.
"Give Me Faith" by "Elevation Worship" is speaking volumes to my heart this morning. As I sit here listening to it, HE is slowly tearing down the wall, that I have hit. HE is wanting me to know that the wall that I have hit, is my unbelief. Even after all this time, I still struggle in believing HIM that HE really does have my best interest at heart.
Yesterday I was given the opportunity to speak HIS truth, and instead I cowered and failed to speak HIS truth when I knew that I was being prompted by HIS HOLY SPIRIT. So, this morning I have fallen flat on my face, in seeking HIM and HIS will for my life, and have asked HIM to please give me the faith that I need to overcome my unbelief that has caused me to hit the wall.
"I need You to soften my heart, to break me apart. I need You to open my eyes, To see that You're shaping my life"
HE is wanting me to know that it isn't always about me learning something new, but rather solidifying what I already know because HE has been teaching it to me for quite some time now. However, in my humanness I think it's more about the quantity of what I am learning, rather than seeking the quality, HIS truth, of WHO I am, and where I fall short, HE doesn't, and HE can, will, & does open my eyes to HIS will for my life, when I surrender at the wall.
"All I am, I surrender."
HE is wanting me to know that surrender for me means that I must choose to let go.... and seek HIS will, HIS truth for my life. I must loose the mindset that "hey GOD thanks for all your help, but I've got this" mentality.
"Give me faith to trust what You say That You're good, and Your love is great. I'm broken inside, I give You my life."
I am learning that though I may be weak, HE isn't and HIS HOLY SPIRIT is strong inside of me. HE is teaching me daily that my flesh will fail when I fail to seek HIS will for my life. I am thankful that my SAVIOR loves me enough to capture my heart, and prove to me time and again that HIS love is unfailing, and unconditional, and is mine.