Monday, June 24, 2013

Don't blink

I became a Mama at the very young age of twenty.  I was hardly an adult when I became in charge of this precious little being.  I remember the first time I laid eyes on her, her sweet little face and tiny hands.  I was mesmerized by her.  I had never seen anything more precious.  I had to pinch myself as I couldn't believe she was mine.  Standing in front of the bathroom mirror and smiling, for the first time in my life, really smiling from the inside because I was so happy I thought I would burst.  D and I were parents.  We were a family, and I was determined I would be everything to her that I didn't have growing up.  I remember the 3am to 7am stretch mornings where I would rock her, and I would fall asleep wake up and she would be looking right at me.  This precious little being was my little girl, and "I" was her Mama.  Rocking her back and forth dreaming of what her life would be like, and looking forward to all the first's.  I remember thinking I can't wait to live my life with her.

Fast forward 14.5 years she is now my oldest of five children and is what most people say a spitting image of me.  As far as looks goes she is like me, but her zest for life, her spirit, her kindness it all comes from GOD.  She has been through a lot in her young life, much like what I went through.  She never dwells on the past though, and always chooses to enjoy the present GOD has given her.  When I look at her, at times I can still see that same little girl.  This fall our first born will be starting high school.  Wasn't she just in 3rd grade?  When did she grow up?  My Mama hearts keeps reminding me that only four more years.  Four more years to train her up right, and then I have to "let her go."  Trust in HIM, trust her, that her Dad and I did our best.  Today's reminder to me is don't blink, because I blinked and she went from being my little girl to this amazing young woman after GOD's heart.  I blinked and missed out on so many blessings, I blinked and missed out on a lot of her life.

Power Thought #10 ~ I live in the present and enjoy each moment.

"This is the day which the Lord has brought about; we will rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:24

There is a saying that goes like this, "Yesterday is history, tomorrow's a mystery, today is a gift thats what its called the present." 

If I am being honest I don't always life my life like that, and in doing so I miss on out so much GOD is wanting for my life.  I often find myself so "busy" that I fail to enjoy every moment when I don't stay focused on my present life.  GOD doesn't want me to dwell on my past, its called the past for a reason.  I can't erase it or change it.  I need to be accepting of my past, living in my present and excited about my future.  GOD also doesn't want me to think too much about the future of my life, because when I do that I miss out on all the blessings GOD is sending my way.  HE is telling me,  "don't blink."

"All to often people are so busy that they put off enjoying their family and friends and then when its too late they regret that they did not make better choices." 

This is me, in realizing I blinked, I don't want to waste anymore time, and cherish every moment I am given with my children, as it all happens in a blink.  I want to live my life knowing that every single moment is a gift from GOD.  I want to live knowing that just by waking up this morning I have been given the precious gift of my life.  Another day to spend with those I love, and bring GOD's kingdom of heaven here to earth. 

"We should celebrate life and the people GOD has placed in our path.  Life is to be enjoyed, not dreaded or regretted." 

I don't want to waste anymore precious time not enjoying my amazing life, and living with all the regrets because I blinked.  I want to focus on the present, and be at peace with my past, I don't want to miss anything.  When I leave this world, I am leaving it with no regrets.

So if you are like me and you "blinked" GOD wants you to know it's not too late to start living in the present.  Choose to be at peace with your past, enjoy your present and be excited about your future.


1 comment:

  1. This is amazing Heather! You have such a way of putting thoughts into words. This really hit home with me as I know I have blinked as well. Wow, what a wake up call! Thank you for sharing this. Love ya!