I must have read those verses at least ten times in the last year, and never did they hit me like a MACK truck as they did at church this weekend. D and I took our five blessings to a new church that came highly recommended by our church family at ELEVATE. We were welcomed right away by the Pastor, and were made to feel at home right away. I silently said a "breath prayer" "LORD please if this is home, let it "feel" like home to us."
When our Pastor began to speak, he started talking about Christmas Carols, and yesterday's was "Away in a Manger." The worship band sang an awesome version of the carol, and when they were done, is when I got an up close and personal look at JESUS. Even our Pastor warned us that this very message was going to be totally in our faces. I'm glad I didn't know that before hand, otherwise I might have "tried" to hide.
JESUS is NOT a part-time LORD, HE does NOT want part-time followers." Whew, hearing those words, I thought, "Surely YOU can't be talking to me LORD?" I began to think, I get up almost every morning at the crack of dawn, and sink deep into HIS word. I journal, and read, and then most days type my blog. However, HE was wanting me to know that those are all good things, however HE is more interested in seeing me walk the walk, than HE is seeing my type the talk!
YIKES! I spent the day pondering what HE was telling me yesterday, and one thing that really stood out for me was, "LORD, I want to know all of YOU. I don't want to be in the dark about any part of you. Help me to surrender." The more I thought about it, the more I thought about the area's in my life where I didn't really know HIM.
When the Pastor read what JESUS said in Matthew 7:21-23 he said it in a way as, "Hey you don't make JESUS your LORD, HE IS your LORD, you just come underneath HIS authority when you accept HIS perfect gift. HE said, JESUS isn't just the reason for the season. The reason is GOD sent HIS only SON, JESUS to be born as a little baby. This is the very reason we sing "The little LORD JESUS asleep on the hay." Away in a Manger
" For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16
However, HE is teaching me that HE is NOT little, HE is MIGHTY, and ALL POWERFUL, ALL KNOWING. HE is wanting me to remember that HE died for us, to pay the ultimate sacrifice, it cost HIM everything! He went onto to say that not only did it cost JESUS everything, it cost us NOTHING, it was a debt that HE paid, that I, Heather, a sinner cannot EVER repay. However, when I received HIS perfect gift of Salvation, it cost me everything, meaning when I said YES to HIM, I said NO to me, therefore I must die unto my selfish fleshly ways, and seek HIM in everything I do, and TRUST HIM completely with unwavering FAITH.
Just typing out all these thoughts that have been going through my mind, make me cringe as I know I have most certainly NOT died unto myself in every area. I know that I still worry, get anxious, don't watch my tongue, and allow my anger to spill out into my actions. As I have stated before, I am a HOTT mess.
HIS Daily Teachings today is to remind me that where I fall short, HE is there. Ready to pick me up right where I am, and will wait for me to say, "I need YOU!" I received HIS loving reminder through a song we sang at church yesterday. While we were singing "Give Me Faith" by Elevation Worship, I threw my hands into the air, and surrendered once again, I asked HIM to soften my heart and break me apart as I needed HIM. I am learning that even when I "think" I have surrendered to HIM completely, HE will continue to seek me, and show me the areas that I have fallen short.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6