However, since HE doesn't get exasperated with me, HE loves me all the more, and that is exactly what HIS Daily Teachings is about today. HE is wanting me to know and understand that HE knows how weary I am from crying. HE is telling me that HE knows my pain, that HE knew it long before I ever even felt it. HE knows the cries of my heart, long before I even feel a cry well up in my heart. HE is reminding me that HE is the ONE WHO created me after all, so therefore NOTHING, NOT one thing that I do, say, or think catches HIM by surprise...... HE knows.
HE is telling me that HE created me so perfectly so that I would be able to cry out to HIM for help, and that my cries for help from HIM would be endless. HE knows...... how much I fear that I will agitate, aggravate HIM with my endless cries for help, HE is telling me that HE NEVER tires of hearing from me, and that is because HE loves me, HE delights in me, and HE wants nothing more than for me to know and trust that HE is the only ONE WHO loves me unconditionally.
"As for me, I call to God,Evening, morning and noon
HE is wanting me to know that HE knows...... all about my deep sorrow. HE is telling me that my sorrow and tears are all apart of HIS plan. HIS plan to bring me closer to HIM, to lead me, to teach me, to guide me that I can, and will be fully dependent on HIM, when I choose to seek HIM, and SEE that no matter what I am going through, HE knows..... and not only does HE know..... HE knows what I need to do to get through it.
"Then my enemies will turn backIn God, whose word I praise,in God I trust and am not afraid.
HE is telling me that through my tears and sorrow HE is pouring HIS living water, HIS word to cleanse my weary and broken soul. HE is wanting me to know that I shouldn't tire from crying, rather I should be accepting and embracing that because HE loves me, HE is having me cry. HE is telling me that HIS purpose for my tears is so that I will be able to receive HIS true healing.
HE is wanting me to know that even though I have been led astray as to the meaning of my tears over the years, HE is telling me that HE created the ability for me to cry to open me up. HE is telling me that it's time to shut down, shut out, and shut up the enemies LIES that crying makes me weak. HE is wanting me to write it on my heart, meditate on HIS truth that crying is what opens me up to HIS true healing. HE is wanting me to know that when I cry I am opening myself up to receive HIS strength, and that is how HE has always intended to build me strong.
HE is wanting me to know that there is a real danger to having dry eyes. HE is telling me that while the world SEES weakness in tears, or SEE them as a waste, HE is wanting me to know that HIS truth is crying is something HE knows will bring me closer to HIM. HE is wanting me to remember HIS truth, HIS word that in HIM there is life. HE is reminding me that the life that I am seeking to live is NOT of this world, rather of HIS KINGDOM of HEAVEN, and even though I am here on this side of the veil, I can still be living in HIS KINGDOM, but I must go through the tests, trials, and storms so that I can know and understand, and even more so appreciate what HIS KINGDOM offers me that this world cannot. HE knows...... HE knew that one day I would seek HIM for the answers, and today HE is pouring them into me...... HE knows that I would come to HIM feeling weary and weak, and HE knew that just what I would need, and that HE would blow me away with HIS blessings in giving me exactly what I needed, right when I needed it. This is how I KNOW that HE is SOVEREIGN.
A few yeas ago through a soul-sisters prayer is when I first learned that HE is SOVEREIGN, and it would be that from that point on HE would be teaching me exactly what that means. HE is reminding me that HE knows.... HE knew that I would dig deep into HIS word so that I would be able to know and understand what HIM being SOVEREIGN meant for my life.
HE is teaching me once again that HIM being SOVEREIGN means that HE is in control. HE is reminding me once again that the sorrow, pain, anguish, and tears that I am experiencing, are only temporary. HE is telling me that HE knows that I am weary from living with all of those things. HE is reminding me once again of HIS word that promises that HE will wipe away every tear that I have cried, and that one day I will know and understand WHY HE did what HE did, is doing what HE is doing, and will do what HE is going to do. HE is telling me that the only way I can really know and understand is by TRUSTING HIM, that HE knows..... and I will only be able to that when I study HIS word, speak HIS word, and live according to HIS word.
" he will swallow up death forever. The Sovereign Lord will wipe away the tears from all faces; he will remove his people’s disgrace from all the earth. The Lord has spoken." Isaiah 25:8