Last week on Sunday morning at 11am a tornado ripped through central IL. The destruction that it left in it's path was unfathomable. For the past week I have been in constant prayer waiting for HIS instructions, and yet, I found myself being pulled further and further away from HIS calling for my life. This frustrated me to no end, and I went to bed almost every night feeling like a fraud, a failure. How I, Heather could claim to be a committed follower of JESUS, and yet fall so hard onto my face.
Over and over I repeated the thoughts that were placed in my head. You shouldn't be typing your blog, as no one really cares about what you are writing about lately. You've done all your ever going to do, you are a fraud, you don't believe. You will never overcome the bondage in your life. You will never serve in a church again, as it will never be the church you once had. Over and over I repeated the lies, and the more I said them, the more I clung to them, and the more they became the truth of my life.
HIS Daily Teachings today is letting me know that all these lies, were the "methodical" works of Satan. HE is wanting me to know that Satan is very patient, and he is in it for the long haul to make sure that I self destruct. HE is wanting me to know that at every point in my life Satan is there waiting, prowling, to destroy me. Through my thoughts, my actions, and through my words, Satan is lying in wait to pounce on me when I am most vulnerable.
HE has revealed to me today that I have fallen for them hook line an sinker. I have been a goner for the past two months, in slowing allowing the bondages to form in my heart, and eventually through Satan's persistence, over into my life.
HE is wanting me to know today that through HIS HOLY SPIRIT, I have the power and the authority to break free from the strongholds and bondages in my life. In other words, HE is letting me know that the deal is off when it comes to Satan. HE is wanting me to declare that by the power and the authority of JESUS CHRIST I am healed. I was purchased and bought for a price. JESUS' sacrifice for my sins, HE paid it all, a debt that I could NEVER repay. I am free because of HIM, and because of HIS sacrifice I no longer have to live under the lies and the manipulation of Satan. HE is telling me that the "father of lies" no longer has any hold over me, all I have to do is declare HIM as my savior, and cast Satan out!
"You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies." John 8:44
I am learning that this verse that JESUS said, no longer has to be the truth for my life. I do not belong to the "father of lies." I am saved, I am loved, I have been forgiven. I no longer have to hold onto the spirit of fear, anxiety, compromise. I can and will rebuke all the generational curses that have been put upon me. I do have the right to say NO to Satan, and YES to GOD.
HE is reminding me today that no matter how much I "think" I understand what HE has been teaching me, I won't be able to continue to grow in my faith for HIM, until I surrender, and seek HIM, and ask HIM to teach, lead, and guide me through every single moment of my journey with HIM. HE has let me know that until I am willing to die unto myself and pick up my cross every single day, I won't be able to live a truly blessed life.
Today HE is letting me know that the things that I have been "holding" onto have been slowly destroying me. HE is wanting me to know that my "holding" on has been all through the "methodical" works of Satan. HE wants me to be a strong fierce warrior of HIS army, and HE doesn't want me to fear anything, because HE has proven to me time and again that HE is always there for me!
This morning HE has reminded me of HIS steadfastness through a song by Matt Redman called "YOU never let go." Oh no, You never let go. Through the calm and through the storm. Oh no, You never let go. In every high and every low. Oh no, You never let go. Lord, You never let go of me